Hanna

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2008-01-09T16:35:00.000Z

im sorry...

i saw my "art work" posted at his blog and it made me cry... ='( i mean... why is he so good to me? It makes me feel so guilty about everything Ive done to him... I feel so bad for hurting him back then... I did that coz I wanted everything to end already... and he did everything to hold on to me... Why does he love me this much? ='( He won't let go... It just makes me feel... It makes me feel like... Like I have to go back for him...

1973

2007-10-25T04:58:00.001Z

2007-09-26T15:49:00.000Z

i know this sounds weird... but the thing is... i still kind of miss addi whenever i look at his blog... its kind of funny how certain things make me miss him and how certain things kind of reminds me of the very reasons why we broke up. Like for example... the red lions won the championship of the NCAA this 2007 (hurrah!! ^_^ bedaaaa-RAH!) and it kind of made me miss him coz last year, we watched the championship game 2gether. I actually wanted to watch it with him... but I had classes. And how the word 'frolics' send me smiling all the time. And how STC still kind of reminds me of him. And uh... mcdo retiro and the old frio mixx kind of has the same effect. i know its odd, and I shouldnt feel this way anymore... but I guess once you've shared your life with someone... they kind of become a part of who you are. Its like they teach you important life lessons which you couldnt have learned if you never made the choices you've made in the past. And you know that whatever happens, wherever life takes you.. and no matter how long it has been... it will always stay. People come and go in our lives for certain reasons. They all have their purpose. Their own meaning... their own depth. I guess now, looking back at everything that has happened... There are also a lot of things that make me think about our break up. And why it was the right thing to do. But I wont focus on that. Because life is a journey. It is a presentation of endless choices you can make. It could be hard, or easy. Happy, or sad. Pointless or meaningful. Beautiful or ugly. Melancholic or wild. Shallow or deep. Fabulous or dull. Laid-back or fast-paced. Complicated or simple. And I guess, I choose to see the time I spent with him, as happy and meaningful.

2007-07-31T22:47:00.000Z

...i still think of u...

i still really do....

i get flash backs all the time...

like that time we went 2 intramuros...

visited the museums and the gardens...

we said we meant the world 2 each other back then....

and that time we went 2 dexter's place?...

in his condominium in the heart of binondo,

where i cud just observe the very rich culture of the chinoys...

and we went up in this glass elevator up up up to the rooftop?...

the sun was setting then while the wind blew softly...

i couldn't forget that...

frolics... family days... bandfests... the stupid fights we had... its amazing... even the jeepneys rides are memorable... how ud put ur arm around me when a scary guy is sitting near... i guess... i guess those are really good memories... it was nice being with u... il cherish them forever... but i guess we're not meant 2b... oh well... someday addi... someday... i hope we'll find it in our hearts 2b friends again... =)

2007-07-31T14:14:00.000Z

friends? =')

i still love u... alam m ba un? alam m ba un? pero hinde... hindi pwede... masyado mo ng pinatagal... im moving forward... im moving forward,,,... no matter how hard... no matter what it takes... im going away.... im slipping away....

my god, im so frikin lazy...

2007-07-18T20:24:00.000Z

the thing is... its already 8:24pm... AND tomorrow's suppose 2b my monthly exam. i havent studied a single thing. I cant blv myself. AND i still had the gutts 2 write ths. I cant bliv ME. Yeah well... tons of things going on in my life ryt now. Cant say everything in here tho. My GOD, this is suppose 2b my blog and I cant even write, what I figgin wna write. Nagiging cycle na 2 eh. First, I say, ANDAMING nangyayare sa buhay ko (TWING marami nga ha.) and then I'd say, "oh I cant say everything here" which if u actually think about it, is like... what the hell do I still have a blog for. AND THEN, I thank people who are there 4 me at that time, like, what is this, then? An acknowledegement paper?? Honestly... *rolls eyes* and I cant even blame people. I just blame ME.

2007-07-16T23:54:00.000Z

i have sooo much stuff in mind right now that I don't know what exactly I should be feeling enimor. T_T Im hurt, Im irritated, Im confused, Im inspired, Im intrigued, Im tired, Im excited, Im... well... Happy still. ^_^ Im so thankful that I have real friends prn talaga hu's with me SOLID all the way. There's Oody and Mae, my two support systems talaga. And of course there's addi who blivs in me no matter what. There's Bagie who listens to everything I have to say even if she doesnt even know anyone in all the stories Ive been telling her. Haaaaay... Thank you thank you THANK YOU talaga sa inyo. Id die without you guys. =')

in the library

2007-07-07T12:19:00.000Z

oh my god, i cannot bliv this. I am actually in the library right now. Yes! IN the library. Haha. Well... dapat kc magkikita kme ni addi. And we did. kaso, as in ganito o:

mE: "Addi! Sorry! Ang traffic kc"
addi: "ok lng. ano? tara na?"
mE: "w8! bili ako ng bubble gum!"
*bili ng bubblegum*
addi: "ok na? tara."
*goes insyd ust thru dapitan g8*
mE: "ok, d2 na ko. ayan na ung library o."
addi: "huh? eh tumawid lng tayo eh."
*galing kc kmeng 7'11. dun kme nagkita*
mE: "ahh... okay. cge. hahatid na kta sa espana g8"
addi: "wag na. d2 kna."
mE: "okay. ^_^' bye"
*alis na*

sooo.... -_- nagtatampo ngaun c addi. Napakamakabuluhan talaga ng mga pagkikita nmen, grabe. antagal nga nmeng mgkasama eh. cguro mga 1min and 20 secs. ^_^ so un. pmunta nlng ako ng lib. kesa nman umuwi. -_- pero, mamaya kcng dismissal nia, he MYT go back here. So eun. un lng. aral na lng ako.... or NOT! hahahaha.

2007-06-30T14:15:00.000Z

Oh my God, my life is actually running sooo fast lately! Cant even bliv i still had the time 2 do this! hehehehe.

P.S. Addi! wag knang mgtampo. ^_^'

2007-06-27T02:31:00.000Z

am i a burden? dont you wna be with me anymore? do you feel sad? do you feel the same? or do you wna leave? coz you dont understand anymore? we both know something's wrong... yet we still choose not to let go.. maybe its foolishness... or maybe... just maybe...its love... but then again.... maybe love isnt enuf all the time... wat do we do now? where do we go from here?... someone please tell me... =(

2007-06-25T14:00:00.001Z

In this world,
love has no color-
yet how deeply my body
is stained by yours.

2007-06-25T13:44:00.000Z

Here's to one and only one,
And may that one be he
Who loves but one and only one,
And may that one be me.

2007-06-25T13:41:00.000Z

I love you even though I know
You show no love for me.
Your eyes are icy springs that feed
My hidden ecstasy.

All night I hold you in my arms
And sleep in your embrace.
All day I turn away from life
To gaze upon your face.

Alone I find within my heart
A black and raging sea,
For only you, beloved one,
Can calm my Galilee...

2007-06-20T10:00:00.000Z

Hiding things from me is not gonna help our relationship. Dont even tell me you forgot. That you never go there. I checked. And i saw that you last logged in on JUNE 9. I saw everything. im surprised im not hurt. Maybe this means you dont mean a thing 2 me anymore. When's it gonna stop if i dont stop it now? My friends try to tell me to end this, but i never listen. Do YOU get satisfaction wenever you hurt me? Or mayb thats just how much you DONT care?

2007-06-19T11:53:00.000Z

If I Could Dream At Night....

If I could dream at night

and if those dreams came true

i would force myself to sleep at night

so i could dream of you

If wishes were given to lonely girls,

and if i were given two

i would wish that you would always love me

the other i would give to you

if my tears could write love songs

Before my tears were through

you would know just how i feel

and how much i love you

But dreams are for dreamers

and wishes seldom come true

my tears could not write love songs

but when they fall....they fall for you.

I love u addi. =')

2007-06-15T22:28:00.000Z

haaaayyy... i h8 this stinkin' feeling. Mababa nakuha ko knina sa pretest and i swear, it really made me feel BAD. Hindi ko alam kung bkt i feel bad wenever i get bad marks but i stil choose not 2 study. Hindi kc tlga ko interested kht anong gawin ko. Pikit-mata ko na nga lng tinatanggap na magiging nurse na tlga ko. Kht na alam kong tinatalikuran ko na lhat ng mga pangarap ko...

2007-06-12T23:32:00.000Z

feeling alone...
not a sound of a soul...
can be heard aound me.

Around me, around me.
I sway and i stir.
Around memories of yesterday.
Of the things that are blurry.

Of all the things that are blurry,
Ur memories glitter.
They shimmer and dance,
across my sparkling eyes.

across my sparkling eyes,
a sheet of gloss blinds me...
covering my thoughts...
with the jewels of uncertainty...

The jewels of uncertainty...
the questions in my head...
i just keep on asking...
why i feel so alone...
not a sound in my soul...
can be heard inside me.

flowing free...

2007-06-12T20:20:00.000Z

ive never felt like this in years... its been a long time now... since i last felt my surge of pure inspirational energy... it feels good... it feels great... for tonight.... i know i can write... but the calling tonight is for sorrow... and so... i must comply... what i am really thinking of right now is my gie... i really miss her... i miss her badly... its hard to actually point out which part of her. But i guess i can trully say i miss everything. I love her. I embrace everything about her. Even her negative traits. For she's the girl who i grew up with. I know that if i had not...it would have been tragic. Her flaws made me stronger. My flaws made HER stronger. We did so much things together. Crazy nights, laughing marathons, endless and senseless plannings of things we knew we'd never do, Walks around every place possible (yes, that includes places such as dark alleyways in the middle of the night laughing at what brand of shampoo the other one is currently using. Dont ask me why. We just do a lot of weird unexplainable things.) and a lot more. But what bugs me is the dream i had recently. Part of it, is about her. The dream went like this:

*gie arrives in the philippines, i heard the news and i quickly go 2 her house to welcome her. The maid opens the door. As i enter without saying anything 2d maid, which i always do, the maid stops me 2 ask who i was*
Maid: Cno hinahanap mo?
Me: Huh? Ate ako 2. C hanna.
Maid: Eh cno nga hinahanap mo?
Me: C gie ho. Malamang ate.
Maid: *gives me a weird look* o cge. Pasok kna.
Me: *enters the house, heads straight 2 her room*
Me: GIEEEEEEEE!!!!! OH MY GOD! ANTAGAL TAGAL NA! NA MISS KITA!!
Gie: Uh... okay. *rolls eyes*
Me: Uhm... gie, kamusta kna? marami na kong kwento sayo! Alam mo ba c-
Gie: Ok ok hanna. Watever. *stands up, goes over 2 the mirror and fixes her hair*
Me: um... gie? ano na nangyari sayo? kwento ka nman o.. =)
Gie: Uh....ewan. Wala nman.
Me: Well, do u wna go sumwer? There's a new mall near-
Gie: Cant. I hav plans.
Me: Oh...
Gie: Look, magtatagal ka ba? Kc my friends are like, coming over and stuff. Baka ma-out of place ka lng or sumting.
Me: ah...okay...
Gie: Ayoko lng nman ma-out of place ka eh.
Me: okay. ^_^' cge. I gues il just go.
*the door suddenly bursts open*
Girl: GIEEEEE!!! OH my GOD! Is it hot here or what?? There sa U.S. i thot it was hot na on summer days pero here talaga nightmare!
Gie: I know! I know! Sobra talaga dba? I cant blv nakatagal nga ako d2 date!
Girl: Exactly!! *notices me* uh...gie? Who's she?
Gie: OH! This is hanna. Dont mind her. Aalis na rn xa.
Girl: Well? Is she going or not? Why is she just standing there? *laughs*
Me: Uhm...aalis na nga. Pero... gie, bakit ka gani2? May mali ba?
Gie: Walaaaaa.. Gaaawd hanna. Ano ba. Why do u hav 2b so dramatic?
Me: Hinde, kc kung may gus2 kang sbhn, sbhn mo nlng, kesa ganyan ka.
Gie: I dont hav tym for this.
Me: But i stil think u owe me an explanation.
Gie: I dont owe u anything. Pero para mag-shut up kna, here's the thing. i just dont wna hang out with u enimor. I mean, seriously? do u really think we still know each other?
Me: Gues not then.
Girl: *laughs* byeee! Go na. Go.
Me: *walks away*

See? See wat i mean? Ang epal nung dream ko talaga. Im really hoping that NEVER happens in real life. Pero ive been on her friendster, and well? i think mayb it has happened...
='( i mean...she never really blivs me wenever i tell her that i miss her... and we really dont talk much often na nman tlga... so... mayb it HAS happened na. I just dont know it yet.
='(

P.S. and that s2pid inspirational energy i was saying a wyl ago? its gone. My sister opened the tv and watched deal or no deal. Honestly. Who could go into a blissful trance of writer's boost when ur whole household is shouting around your ear?

...

2007-05-07T11:52:00.000Z

nothing's happening. Oh god im so bored. Ive been spending my entire summer vacation lying around. With of course, the occasional malling trips. Grabe super init ngaung summer. AS IN. i think konti nlng mah-heat stroke na ko. Hehe. I cant blv im saying this, pero.... sana may pasok na!! kc namamatay na ko sa kawalan ng ginagawa eh. I mean, i know i shud go get in shape. Pero... oh well. Kakatamad. I think il lie down nlng ulet... txt addi and stuff... haaaaay...

Okay

2007-02-25T12:06:00.000Z

Okay, so naghihintay lng ako ngaun para sa report ng mga classm8s ko, kc ako dpat ung mg-cocompile... At wala pa. So e2 nlng gagawin ko. Hay grabe antagal tagal ko ng hindi nagsusulat d2...as in ung 22ong sulat ha. And, now...looking back at all the things I wrote...I feel like somehow...I'm not the same person any more. I feel...different. I feel different from the "hanna" i used to be. I dont know why. But sometyms? I wish I were the same. Forever bubbly and optimistic. Always looking on the bright side. Not afraid of anything. But I know that it just cant work that way any more. Coz I'm 18 now... not the same 16 yr old nene I used to be. Somehow I'm a bit more realistic, less irresponsible and, well.... more caring about the people around me. I used to go around xe, not thinking about how others myt feel. Well, sort of. But not entirely. Pero ngaun prang I care more. Pero oh my god talaga. Narerealize ko how much one heck of a blastin' good tym my whole high school was. Xempre part of it is because of the people I was with back then. Pero kc lately? May cnabi c Ma'am Uy sa RLE nmen.... sabi nia "Most people say na high school will always be the best days of their lives.... Pero pwede nmang hinde dba? Pwede nmang college... After all... It's you who make your memories..." And you know what, it got me. Got me real good. Kc I used to mourn every single day of this college life kuno. Dahil nga epal. Pero ngaun na-realize ko. Totoo nman ung cnabi nia eh. I mean, and2 na ko. Dba. So why not enjoy it nrn? Kht na feeling ko hopeless... magiging hopeless lng nman tlga toh kung hahayaan ko. Maganda tlgang mg-hold on sa past. Pero kc if you don't live the moment now... You wouldn't even have a past to look back at... I'm glad the people that has been part of my life continues to inspire me. In some bizarre way, you guys make up all of me. The experiences.... everything. I'm colorful coz you guys are my life's painting. I'm optimistic coz good things happen to me because you guys help me get thru. And honestly? I'm happy coz u guys are around. I'm a one person mosaic of soooo much good tyms. I'm happy Im this way. Im happy I make mistakes and I'm happy Im not perfect. Coz if I were? Life would be pointless coz I wudnt need anyone any more, ryt? ryt. So un. Un lng nman napag-icp icp ko. Hahaha. Andame eh noh. Sana dumating na report. Hehe. Chloe, Mae.... T_T huhu. Tpos na ba ung flow chart?...

2007-02-15T07:11:00.001Z

Im back in the blog business people!^.~

2007-02-15T07:09:00.000Z

hyyeeesss!!! NAPALITAN KO NRN!!! YEY!! ^_^

2006-10-24T06:17:00.000Z

http://friends.stardoll.com/r/9c7e71acb4751029ac56

2006-10-08T12:43:00.000Z

Honestly If a I tell,
tell you what,
What you want to know love
There ain't another,
Don't want no other lover
I put nothing above ya.
I kick them to the gutter.
You try to shake me but wound up loving me crazy now
Look at us lately and tell them who's your lady

I'd never thought you'd be the one,
Make me shine brighter than the sun
There ain't no ups and downs,
No in and out to here right now.

If you want me to stay
I'll never leave
If you want me to stay
We'll always be
If you want me to stay,
Love endlessly
If you want me to stay
If you want me to stay
I'll never leave you

Now all your loving that
We're happy it's a fact
Can't nothing hold us back.
We got this in the bag
There ain't no maybes
No questions, love you daily now
Look at us lately and tell them who's your lady

I'd never thought you'd be the one,
Make me shine brighter than the sun
There ain't no ups and downs,
No in and out to here right now.

If you want me to stay
I'll never leave
If you want me to stay
We'll always be.
If you want me to stay,
Love endlessly
If you want me to stay,
If you want me to stay
I'll never leave you.

2006-10-07T08:34:00.000Z

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn,don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude

It's tearing me apart
It's ruining everything
I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you?

But I'm missing you
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger,
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong, I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used

But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you
But I'm missing you
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger,
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger

But I'm missing you
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger,
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger

You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger,
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger

2006-10-07T08:24:00.000Z

In my head I have dreams
I have visions of make believe
Questions, longings in my mind
Pictures fill my head
I feel so trapped instead but
Trapped doesn't seem so bad
'Cause you are here

It doesn't mean anything
Without you here with me
And I can try to justify
But I still need you here with me

In my heart I had hope
Built on dreams I'll never know
Answers to love left behind
Visions filled my head
I felt so trapped instead but
Trapped didn't seem so bad
'Cause you were near

It doesn't mean anything
Without you here with me
And I can try to justify
But I still need you here with me
I can't do anything without you

You give me strength to do anything
I can't be everything I try to
You saved me from the everything
I couldn't be
It doesn't mean anything
Without you here with me

And I can try to justify
But I still need you here with me

It doesn't mean anything
Without you here with me
'Cause after all is said and done
I still need you here with me

I need you here with me
I need you here with me

2006-10-07T08:23:00.000Z

What is this
Mass confusion
This crazy way we're living
This emptiness we're passing out
Like candycoatedwaterdrops
I'm spilling out my thoughts
You're spilling out your guts
And I can't help but stop and think that
If the world stopped spinning
If the end was beginning
Would you even notice if I wasn't there?
If the world stopped spinning around
"All that's worth dying for is already dead"
An empty religion you've learned to accept
When nothing means everything, your daily routine
You go through the motions like a helpless machine
You're spinning 'round
You're spinning 'round
And I can't help wondering
You're spinning 'round
You're spinning 'round
And I can't help wondering
When the answers to everything are right in your hands
You lose your conviction, but you can't help standing
On the one thing that held you for so many years
You ask for forgiveness and hold back the tears

2006-10-07T08:15:00.000Z

You didn't care about me...

So I packed my bags,

And left you to wonder

What you could've done better.

To make our love stronger,

We could have lasted forever and longer.

But we'll never know how good it could be,

This isn't how it should be.

I couldn't laugh,

I couldn't cry,

I couldn't waste another day.

I couldn't live,

I couldn't lie low any longer.

I couldn't laugh,

I couldn't cry,

I couldn't waste another day.

I couldn't live,

I couldn't lie low any longer.

Did you ever care about me?

I remember the time,

You looked in my eyes and promised

We'd stay together.

Our love would grow stronger,

The storms we had weathered

Wouldn't last any longer.

But we'll never know how good it could be,

This isn't how it should be.

I couldn't laugh

I couldn't cry

I couldn't waste another day

I couldn't live

I couldn't lie low any longer

I couldn't laugh

I couldn't cry

I couldn't waste another day

I couldn't live

I couldn't lie low any longer

It could've been so good....

But (i guess...) there was something else for me.

2006-08-07T15:01:00.000Z

Just lyk a star across my sky,
Just lyk an angel off the page,
You hav appeared to my life,
Feel lyk I'll never be the same,
Just lyk a song in my heart,
Just lyk oil on my hands,
Oh..I do love you,
Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but u,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,
You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is au fait,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh.,..
Your love,
Stil i wonder y it is,
I dnt argue lyk this,
With any1 but u,
We do it all the tym,
Blowing out my mind,
I have come 2 understand,
The way it is,
Its not a secret anymor,
'cause we've been thru dat b4,
From 2nyt I knw that ur the only 1,
Ive been confused & in the dark,
Now I understand,
I wonder y it is,
I dnt argue lyk this,
With any1 but u,
I wonder y it is,
I wont let my guard down,

4 any1 but u
We do it all the tym,
Blowing out my mind,
Just lyk a star across my sky,
Just lyk an angel off the page,
You hav appeared to my life,
Feel lyk I'll never b the same,
Just lyk a song in my heart,
Just lyk oil on my hands...

2006-06-17T15:50:00.000Z

i miss him... ='( its been 3 days now... addi, come back... ='(

2006-05-13T08:00:00.001Z

I feel so empty. I feel like nothing in my life makes sense anymore. I hate it. I seem 2b stuck in the past. I want 2 go back so bad. Sometimes, late at night... I stay up and just pray. I pray that when I wake up the next morning it will b june of 2004 agen. I wish this so hard, I end up dreaming of being back in highschool almost every night. I wanted the dream 2 last, 2 never stop. Sometimes I even wish that I won't wake up.

Back then, I was the one being all optimistic of what's 2 come wen almost all of my friends r afraid of having 2 start a new life in college. I was the one always telling them that's its gonna b okay. Well, it turns out that they are okay. But not me. Im so depressed. I miss my friends. Of what we had back then. Its so sad 2 think that u hav d same people around u, but somehow...they're not the one u knew way back then. They hav a different life, and they all seem 2b enjoying it. And Im the only one who can't seem 2 get her act 2gether. What's my problem anyway? I guess my problem is...im not happy. And its not about wanting any material or physical wealth... its about having ur old friends back. Its about doing what u love 2 do. And not being forced in2 doing something ur not in2. And I dont even want 2 blame nursing 4 this. Because I know, that if my friends are bsyd me, I'll b okay with it. But they're not. And that's what sucks. It sucks. Its so awful, it makes me cry night after night. I dont want 2 live anymore. There's no point. And if only u can feel half of what im feeling ryt now? I bet ul cry with me... im so sad.

Last nyt? I had this talk with my mom, I told her that Im not happy. And I asked her "what did I miss?" because everyone seems like they're having the time of their lives and Im stuck in the past. She told me "Wla. Kaso, tapos na un. Ganun tlaga. Hindi mo na mababalik un." and that's it. I turned my back on her. Because I didnt want her 2 see the tears falling from my eyes.

='(

2006-03-24T14:31:00.000Z

We love the times when it rains
Relaxing drops that soothes the pain
Insanity rises, feeling at ease
flickering fire cease to exist

Fog covering the window
Hinders us from the world we know
Important as it may, we tend to forget
Whenever the sky above is wet

Sitting together, seeking comfort
Realizing what this love is worth
Priceless as the courage exerted by heroes
More venomous than the wrath of foes

Let the rain continue to pour
'Coz we're here asking for more
Let the streets get flooded
Understand those words unsaid

The sky is getting darker, darker as we speak
And yet light is not what we seek
For in ourselves, that's what we have
Ignited by our love...

2006-03-13T10:38:00.000Z

Okay, so im super busy lately, because school seems 2b taking over my life, and I DONT LIKE IT! but hey! Who says I have a choice? =\

2006-03-10T15:52:00.000Z

Wouldn't it it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong
You know it's gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together
Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was never ending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope

and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing,

we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice
You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Oh,wouldn't it be nice?...

2006-03-09T11:12:00.000Z

....i wish things never had to change... I wish I was still in high school where everything seems so simple and fresh...and I could just sit on my desk all day dreaming... I wish even the littlest of things would bring joy and happiness to my heart.... (it still does, though I cant find anyone anymore nowadays who shares my view.. =( ...its sad, really...) I wish I was still so young and free... I wish everything was like it used to be... I wish you were still in love with me....

shit

2006-03-05T09:01:00.000Z

Haaaaay....guess wat? my mom got mad at me. Why? Because I forgot to throw away this piece of paper littered somewhere on the floor! GAWD! What is up with her? I mean, sure. She has the rights to get all over my case but not to the point that she'd be all, wide eyed and screaming like hell. So anyway, I just finished watching NANNY MCPHEE. It was a good movie! Its actually great! Really. I mean, it might seem like, its not deep enough, or its too common, or anything like that...but sometimes, its nice to watch movies like that. I mean, it doesnt have to be deep, or historical or gory for a movie to be worth watching right? Eun lng. Sorry. Super wlang kwenta 2ng entry ko. Pano ba nman kc, bsta lng may msulat. Hehe. Excited pa kc ako eh. Abwt my new skin and all. Hehe.

Yey!

2006-03-04T13:49:00.000Z

YEY! BAGO NA BLOG KO!! Haaaaaay salamat. Nakakita rn ako ng gus2 ko. Kc nman ang hirap humanap. hehe. IM BACK!! ;D

2006-01-19T13:16:00.000Z

is this even true?

2006-01-12T14:19:00.000Z

.......................i cant believe that...................it........................it actually.....................happened...................*sigh

between 8:00pm to 8:30 pm

2006-01-05T10:26:00.000Z

Since Im already in collge, i guess i shud start blogging abwt my collge life instead of limiting myself 2 blog only abwt news from my highschool world. (which is basically the entire content of this blog. Highschool, i mean.) So anyway, now that im in college, mrami nrn nmang bagong nangayayari. Xempre bago na friends ko. So mejo new set of characters toh, sa buhay ni Hanna. (aka ME.) Unang una xempre, iba na mga ksama ko. (nsbi ko na ata 2 dati.) Cla mae, kathlyn, and oody na. Iba nrn mga classm8s ko. Mlamang. This means I hav male classmates nrn. Dati naicp ko, cguro ang pangit ng ganun. Kc boys r "magulo","mabaho" and "maingay" all the tym. (WITH THE EXEMPTION OF MY GUY FRIENDS DATI PA OF COURSE! (Jessie, Ramch, Francis, Mikko, Kelly, Nelson etc etc) AND ADDI! :D) But thats not the case pla. They can be nice too! Well, not that im getting too close to them or anything. (I LOVE U AIRCON!! :D) Kso, wla lng. I just realized it. With Edcel, bringing me home nung wla kong ksama and Lorenz giving me pasalubong when he went back from Bicol and Darwin with his super nice stories and Guil (dati, kso wla na xa) na ksama ko nung isang theo pd. na niligyan ko ng clip na wings sa ulo habang kumakanta kme ng "ordertaker" at the top of our lungs sa corridor.... I realized na guys are girls too. Na its just the same thing kpg friend mo cla. Now abwt the girls in our class (bukod kay mae oody at kathlyn na sobrang saya ksama.) msaya dn c Val, kc she's super funny (at sobrang sarap asarin. Hahaha.) c Sandra, c Cha, c Larraine (na super PERFECT. like, she's a chem wiz, and she has this SUPERMODEL-like body.) c Shantal (na kasundo ko sa witchcraft) c Steph (na super PRETTY at hindi boring ksama.) at lhat lhat na. Eun....wla lng. Hay....ano ba toh. Prang.....msaya na college na ko... Pero hinahanap hanap ko prn highschool.
=( Iba tlga highschool eh, noh? grabe. Wonderyears. U guys, (highschool people) kht na mtanda na ko? No one can replace u tlga coz uve been part of the best years of my life. And I dont think i cud ever stop blogging abwt my highschool, kc ganun na un tlga. It will always be a part of me. You people will always be a part of me. :-)

2005-12-26T13:16:00.001Z

I want to cry.I want to scream. I cant eat. I cant sleep.I dont want to talk 2 anyone.I dont want 2 listen 2 anyone. I think Im crazy. I think Im dying.

but Im not regretting anything.
I love him.
I love him so much.

Maybe someday I'll move on. Maybe someday I'll love again. Maybe someday I'll get my life back on track. Maybe someday I'll forget.

...No, I dont think I could ever forget. The emotions that goes with all my memories of him are far too strong. His eyes, his hands, his hair, his smile, his laugh, his voice. The way he looks at me, the way he holds my hand, the way he slips his arm around my waist, the way he places his head on my shoulder, the way he brushes my hair away from my face, the way he smells, how soft his lips felt when it was pressed against my skin, the way we talked, the way we laughed, the way we loved each other.

I'll never forget him.

Deep inside I know, that I'll never stop loving him. But someway, somehow, I'll find a way to live through everyday without him by my side. I just know, that the memories we shared and played will keep me alive. This feeling that I have inside is eternal. It will never change, nor falter.

Goodbye....

.... my love.

mErry christmas 2 me?

2005-12-24T23:00:00.000Z

OUT OF REACH

Knew the signs

Wasn't right

I was stupid for a while

Swept away by you

And now I feel like a fool

So confused

My heart's bruised

Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach,

so far

I never had your heart

Out of reach,

Couldn't see

We were never

Meant to be

Catch myself

From despair

I could drown

If I stay here

Keeping busy everyday

I know I will be OK

But I was

So confused,

My heart's bruised

Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach,

so far

I never had your heart

Out of reach,

Couldn't see

We were never

Meant to be

So much hurt,

So much pain

Takes a while

To regain

What is lost inside

And I hope that in time,

You'll be out of my mind

And I'll be over you

But now I'm

So confused,

My heart's bruised

Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach,

So far

I never had your heart

Out of reach,

Couldn't see

We were never

Meant to be

Out of reach,

So far

You never gave your heart

In my reach,

I can see

There's a life out there

For me

Its christmas time and i know i should be rejoicing. But....well....again, im hurting. I dont know what to do anymore... Its like.... I thought he'd change. He told me he'd change. And I believed him. 1 year later and he still hasn't. I cant believe this. Why didn't I stop this a long time ago? I mean, if I did, then I wouldn't be experiencing all this pain. I know. Because I didn't want to hurt him. I waited 4 him to get over me. Na magsawa. Hoping against all hope that he'd give up, despite the fact that I was nice to him. I thought 2 myself, "I'll just make the wait really long so that maybe, he'd grow impatient and just give up". I didn't want to hurt him, because I wanted to keep him as a friend after his courtship, which is why I was careful. Maybe its because he seems so fragile,and he makes me want to take care of him. Besides, I feel like a guy like him doesnt deserve a harsh i-dont-like-you-so-go-away-and-leave-me-alone treatment....I mean, he's sensitive. So I made him wait. I knew highschool guys hated waiting. They have hormones which kept on jumping up and down every now and then, as my teacher called it. I knew at that time that, it can't be anything serious. Like, come ON. He saw me in the interaction. Which lasted for three hours only. And he didn't even talk 2 me. So, fine. Meet meet after a while. Pinag-bibigyan ko lng. Kc nga ang BAIT. and, he's kinda cute when he gives u that "paawa" look whenever you wont let him have his way. So un. after 5 months, he was still at it. And after those 5 months, I actually felt like I LOVED HIM. I actually told him that. Later did I found out that i just liked him. Not love. No way. So after another four months, which makes it nine months of courtship, I decided to tell him that....well.... kme na. Kc a lot of people are like, accusing me na pnapaasa ko lng xa. Which isn't true. Im not that kind of girl. Ask gie. She'll tell you im straight forward. So un nga, inicip ko na... Kc dati...hinihintay ko lng xang mgsawa. Kakahintay ko, 2magal na ng 2magal na parang ako na yung lalabas na msama kung hindi ko xa sasagutin after all those time. So pagkasagot ko skanya, I went home. Tulala. "What hav i done?" i asked myself. Tas I called gie. Only when she started bombarding me with questions like (xempre she knows how i really feel) "SURE KA???" "NAKO. SIGURADO KA BA?" "ALAM MO 1ST MO YAN, DI KA BA NAGDADALAWANG ICP?" and "HaAaAanna! ALAM MO BA GNAWA MO?" did it sink in. I was taken. Taken by a man whom I dont really feel strongly about. So after 3hours, I texted him. "Addi? Can we talk?" 2which he replied "I LOVE U!!" so I texted him again. "Addi, ikaw sumagot ng fone. I need 2 tell you something." Tas eun. Here's how it went...

Addi: Hello?

Me: Oh, hi addi i wna say--

Addi: HannaaAaAaa!

(I can almost feel him embracing me at that time. Which well, made it harder 4 me 2 tell him what I had 2 tell him

Me: Uhm.. hehe. So, ano na?

Addi: Cnabi ko na sa mga tao! Alam na ni MARC! NI CHIQUI! NI--

Me: Oookay. *inhales*(Im thinking, "oh god, im EVIL! but i HAV 2 do this. Mas unfair nman kung kme nga pero ndi ko xa mhal..")

Me: Addi? I... Im sorry.

Addi: huh? bkt hanna?

Me: I... well... lets call this whole thing off. Sorry.

Addi: Huh? Ah....Hanna? You know, its okay. I understand, kung ndi ka pa ready and hindi pa muna pwede ngayon--

Me: Addi? Hindi kc sa.....hindi.....muna. Hindi.....tlga.

Addi: Ah...uh... ganun ba?

Me: ...... im sorry. Bye.

Addi: ....................bye.

So un. I felt good and bad at the same time. I felt good because Im free again. That im not bound to a man who i am not in love with. Besides, he's nice, but he has this thing about being too sweet with his lady friends. I figured, i couldn't live with that. (Wer not talking about him txtng them and talking 2 them lng ha? wer talking about HIM saying "i love u" "i miss u" "ur so beautiful" "U take care lagi" "wla ng hahanapin pa sayo" and frequent "ano gawa mo?" 2 them. That, and girls inviting him 2 their dorms, "girls getting wrong sent" with stuff like " Bat kc ganun? I think im falling for addi na..." and girls calling him 2 say "Wag mo kong pagpapalit ha?" and....yknw? The likes. Not 2 mention na ung ibang may crush sa kanya dati na...well, hindi girl, is, well....trying 2 pick a fight with me. So,im thinking "Pano nlng kpg naging kme? Kakayanin ko kaya? Buti sana kung hindi nia ini-entertain....kso ini-entertain nia. And its not like those girls (and that guy) will ever leave us alone. Pano kung naging as in KME tlga? Will he invite them 2 our wedding day? Kpg mg-asawa na kme gagawin pa ba niang ninang ng mga anak nmen ung mga un? No. I cant live with that.") and bad, kc......he's nice and he's caring. Besides, alam ko nman na hindi nia tlga cneseryoso ung mga "ganung" cases eh. After that night, i woke up the next morning and found 16 msgs on my fone. Not a single one from him. Odd. But i guess its okay, considering the fact that i wasted 9 months of his life. (He could've just courted another girl who would've became his girlfriend in two days flat since, hello? Mgaling c addi.) L8r that afternoon, he txtd me something. He let it all out. He called me cruel. He told me na i played him. Na he wasnt any different from all the other guys who courted me. And i accepted it all. Because somehow, I felt like i deserved it. Days passed. Not much txt msgs from him. Actually, there was a day nga when he didnt text at all. On the 6th day, he's sweet again. Pero alam ko na he's hurting prn. I knew I left a pretty deep wound on the guy's feelings. I had 2 admit. All those time when he wasn't txtng me? I was silently praying na he would. Deep inside, i missed him. And deep inside I knew, that I had fallen in love. But that can't be. I NEVER fall in love. i let guys do all the crushing. I mean, puh-lease! You wouldn't catch me crying over those i-love-him-but-he-doesnt-even-know-i-exist drama. Nothing can change THAT. Until....he came around and made my world revolve differently. I remembered everything. All the moments I spent with him. The grad ball. Frolix. Paul's soiree. His birthday. Everything. Even that time when we were riding the swings on this playground and just looking up at the clouds talking about nothing. And then i realized...i CANT let him slip away. So on the seventh day, i acted like a possesed woman. I went 2 ateneo, without telling my parents, skipped all my appointments 4 that day without thinking about the consequences. and even the fact that, well...i didnt know how 2 go 2 ateneo. but i managed. So when i got there, he saw me, looked in2 my eyes, and the rest, is history. Naging kme na. I LOVED HIM. Pero ngayon? wel...i still do. Kso.....parang.....he doesnt love me as much na. I cant blame him. Matagal na nia kc akong mhal. Eh samantalang ako, these feelings r still so new 2 me....And may promise ciang alam kong kht kelan hindi nia matutupad. He has me for his girlfriend but he's acting like he's single. Ndi ko na alam gagawin ko. Nagsisisi ba xa? Na niligawan nia ko? Na naging kme? Now that......she's back in the picture?... Ung lagi niang cnasabihan ng maganda? without her telling him 2 do so?... Siguro he's just too nice to break up with me. And it sucks. Now that ive completely fallen 4 him....

w8ing

2005-12-10T03:21:00.001Z

I am waiting. Im waiting for my one and only aircon here in UST. We're suppose 2 meet each other kc. We're going malling 2gether! :) iT'S NICE. Coz unlike other couples who can't seem 2 do anything but make out and go malling, those are the very things we dont do much. We,on the other hand, go 2 other people's houses (sandra! rmember?) sort of bend rules (no girls in Lauan? I was THERE.) go 2 schools (beda, UST, ateneo), go 2 concerts without watching the band and play counterstrike. (Okay, that was just one tym.) We normally see each other in UST. (Where we just sit and talk...and, well, sometyms eat.) But then again, we dont "normally" see each other. Because we dont see each other THAT much tlga. So everytym we do, we make it a point 2 make the most out of it. OH! hE'S hERE!! gtg. ;) its 11:30 ah. Ewan ko kc kung asan na ung tym eh. mtagal na kong d nkapgpost so im kinda lost with the new lay out. I'll worry about it some other time. Bye.

One year...

2005-11-09T21:11:00.000Z

*sigh... November 9, 2005... well well well... Time, DOES fly...because... exactly one year ago... our paths crossed. I can still remember that fateful day as if it was yesterday... And... well... it makes me feel... it makes me feel happy and sad at the same time. Happy, in a sense that, it happened. I mean... It was a good memory. *grins* and sad, because... Its all over now. =( I mean, when I think of all the happy moments I had back then, it doesnt just strike me as something happy. Somehow, there's bitterness in it also. It makes me want to go back there and see it all over again. Coz.. Well... Isn't it sad to look back at memories, THAT great and realize its all in the past now? Well... yeah, maybe. But...uhm... I kept a big piece of it up to now. And... I know, that just because were here in the future, doesn't mean that the past is lost forever. I have proof of that. Coz I have a living breathing chunk of remembrance of everything that happened on November 9, 2004. And that piece of memory is none other that Addi. =) November 9, wouldn't have been a striking event if it wasn't for him. I love him to the core and nothing can EVER change that. He taught me a lot of things and he makes me feel like I'm on top of the world. Because of him, I believe that there's heaven here on earth. What can I say? I love him. =) Besides...Its nice to have someone to talk to about everything that happened back then and when you ask him, "You know, what I mean?" he always does. And I just know that he ALWAYS will. =)

PS: I miss Gie and Bagie. =(

...

2005-10-03T11:24:00.000Z

Im in the library right now, killing some time because of my four hour break. Can you believe it? I like, only have 2 classes during mondays and fridays! {CA-F>7:30am-9:00am and Philosophy>1:00pm-2:00pm} and get this! One class for wednesdays! Only Philo. Tapos na kc chem lec and chem lab nmen eh. Haaaay...What am I suppose to do with all this time?? I know, I know. STUDY. Kaso tinatamad nman ako. I've got to pass a 250-word essay and a test on English for tomorrow, a test on dosages, intravenous fusion and providing the right amount of insulin to patients etc etc for Math! Kakainis. Tas may project pa ko na due na 4 thursday (na 1week ago pa atang cnimulan na ng mga wonder classmates ko...) and wala pa kong nagagawa kht ISA! And im wasting my time on blogging for pete's sake! Oh yeah! And test na pla nmen sa chem lab this thursday...Haaaaay. Cge. Gtg. Alis na ko.

M still alive

2005-08-25T13:58:00.000Z

I'm still here....I'm still breathing and my heart is still beating...but I'm barely alive. School's draining every bit of energy left in my body. But its fun. Coz studying in a University as big as UST really is, teaching me a LOT of stuff. For instance, I'm now more independent. Unlike before. Kc dati I can't go out of school and eat on my own and stuff like that, pero ngayon it's normal. I mean, I have friends, but we're all pretty much alike. Ganun din cla minsan. Prang ngayon. Tpos na kc ako sa theo, so ung dpat lng na pumasok, ung mga ibang ndi pa. But I hav P.E. alangan nman umuwi pa ko. So mag-isa ko. But its good, yknw. =) It's good.

ARRRRGH!!!

2005-08-16T10:11:00.000Z

BUHAY PA KO! PERO EWAN KO NLNG KUNG HANGGANG KELAN PA KO TATAGAL! ADDI! ALAM MO BANG MAY PLANO SANA KO?! KASO!! AAAAARRRRRGH! MAY NABASA NANAMAN AKO! ...kaya...wag nlng pla... =(

2005-07-08T22:16:00.000Z

Oh my God.... I'm so tired. School's like, stressing me out so much that I end up doing much worse now, than when I was in highschool. Baliktad, grabe. Kakainis. I think it's the average-of-2.0 thingie. I dont do well under pressure kc... =( How I wish I'm somewhere else. Nakakahiya ako ngayon sobra. Tas I look uglier pa. Kasi, I haven't been sleeping, coz I hav to study this and that and this and that, and I keep on thinking and thinking, hanggat maka2log ako (l8 na ko mkaka2log. Mga 3-5 hours of sleep nlng a day. ), and I end up NOT studying eniwei, and cramming everything in the morning and flunking later that day. It's..sickening. So, hindi ako natutulog....meaning? Eyebags. I'm under stress, meaning? TONS of pimples. Tapos, xempre! no sleep + stress = Trying-2-comfort-urself-by-PIGGING-OUT! So! I therefore conclude that I'm becoming A fat pimply haggard dumb-o! WOW. This is really working out 4 me! 8) .... NOT!!! ;-(

Im sorry

2005-07-02T15:15:00.000Z

It's been a long time since i blogged. Pano ba nman kc, super busy! So recap nlng sa mga nangyari. Hmmm...kaso...wla plang dapat i-recap! Hehehe. Ung 1st day funk lng ng Parokya ni Edgar. Eun. Msaya nman. I was with Ralph (Turingan ah), Sai, Steph, Apple, Mae, Odessa, Cha and Jam! =) May P.E. nga kme dpat nung day na un eh. Buti nlng cancelled. Hehehe. Kundi! Nako. Di ko dpat na kuha ung mineral water ni Chito. Hahaha! =) Tas...mrami pa eh. Mraming nangyayari sa buhay ko. Mxado nga lng mabilis ung takbo, kya i sometimes lose track. =)

i think....i think....

2005-06-22T21:57:00.000Z

Okay nman day ko 2day. (Exept 4 dat s2pid chem. incident! Pft! Bwct YON!!!!) Aun, normal, sobra. Ay nga pla. Ano na ba nangyayari sken? Hmmm...bsta alam ko, last june 20,(tama ba? June 20?) na meet ko boyfriend ni Mae. Aun, aus nman. Bagay cla. Mukha nman ciang mabait. Aun, khapon nman, wla lng. Normal. Fun dn. Fun nman kc cla Mae, Odessa and Kathlyn eh. Tas nung uwian khapon, ksama ko c Stephanie, c Charisse, c Apple, c Ralph and c Jam. (Jam super looks like my grandfather! sobra!) Tas aun, nauna ng umalis cla apple and charisse. Tas after nila, umalis na c Stephanie. Tagal kc ng sundo ko. Kya kmeng tatlo nlng. Tas umalis na dn c Ralph. Tas kme nlng ni Jam. Buti nman di nia ko iniwan. :) Tas ngaung araw na 2, antagal nanaman ng sundo ko. Kya aun. Nauna nanaman cla Mae, kc iba cla ng gate. Ksma ko nanaman cla Stephanie. Pero this tym, nauna na clang lhat umalis. Tas naiwan ako ksama ni Ralph. Aun. Buti nman nauna sundo ko. (Kelangan na tlga qng payagan magcommute!) Tas nagkta kme ni bagie. Umiyak ako... :( kc i missed her.. Haaaay... College is fun. But sometyms...I still miss High school...

2005-06-19T18:40:00.000Z

Happy Father's Day to all the d fathers of the people who are reading my blog! =) Nwei, last Thursday, I got um...a surprise. A pleasant surprise. =)Kc, gani2 yan, twing thursday, P.E. ko. 3pm-5pm. Tas before ako mag-P.E., may one hour break ako. So, aun. After regular classes, ksama ko na yung dalawa kong clasmate na kaparehas ko ng P.E., pra hanapin (yea, hinanap na nmen agad, 2:10pm plng) yung bldg. nmen. Helloooo? Ang laki ng UST! So un, hanap kme ng hanap, lakad kme ng lakad, under the sun! Grabe hirap. Tas mga around, 3:10, na hanap na nmen-sa wakas! Kaso guess wat? No P.E. for that day! So yung dalawa kong classmate, umuwi na. Mag-isa nlng ako. Cla mommy, darating pa ng 5:00pm. Tas, ndi pa daladala ni mommy celfone nia, kc nsa malabon cia ksama ni Papa. Kaya yun, bumalik nlng ako ng nursing bldg. Thankfully! Andun pa c Stephanie and c Lorenz. Kaya, ayun, ndi nman ako naging loner. Kaso, ang gagawin pla nila, maghanap ng libro. So lakad nnman. Grabe! Ang sakit na ng paa ko. Tas aun, tanong tanong kme, hanggat nlaman nmen na yung libro pla na yun, mahahanap lng sa may um...i forgot. Bsta un. Sa malayong lugar! Aaaarrrghhh! Lakad nnman! (U can't imagine wat state i'm in at that point.) So pagdating nmen dun, I decided 2 check my cellfone. Well well well. Wat do u know. 5 messages received! Galing lhat kay Addi. Msg1:"Hanna! Uwian na nmen! =) M free na 4 the day!" Msg2:"Hanna! Gusto mo puntahan kta?=)" Msg3:"Ano, Hanna? Puntahan na kita? =)" Msg4:"Hanna! Nsa rec2 na ko! Papunta na kong UST!" Msg5:"Hanna! Im here! Asa tpat ako ng Archi bldg. asan ka?=)" then I was like..."Oh. My. God. Um...Lorenz? Anong bldg. toh?" i was refering to the bldg. beside us. Tas sbi nia "Archi bldg." OH nOoO! Pagtalikod ko, andun na cia! Waaaaaah! At sa state ko ba nman nun! Steph was like "Wla ka man lng time magsuklay." So aun. Andun cia, mag-isa. Pawis na pawis dn. Hello. Mag-commute ka ba nman mag-isa from Ateneo to UST. Eh magkabilang sulok ng mundo yon. Tas aun. Hi, Hello. Tas pinakilala ko cia kay Steph and kay Lorenz. Tas alis na kme. Tas tinanong nia kung ano daw schedule ko. Umupo muna kme sa bench, tas inabot ko skanya bag ko. Sbi ko hanapin nia dun. Tas nilabas nia gamit ko! Kinuha ko nga dn bag nia, tas nilabas ko dn gamit nia, tas i got a piece of paper, i crumpled it and placed it in his bag. Tas nung tpos na niang kunin schedule ko, inaabot na nia sken ung ntbk ko. Sbi ko, ayusin nia un, kc cia nagkalat nun. Tas inayos nia. Tas nkta nia gamit nia nkakalat prin. Sbi nia "Nako. Di man lng nia inayos gamit ko." then he starts fixing his bag when he saw the crumpled piece of paper. "O! Nagkalat pa! Hanna talaga." tas sbi ko w8 lng, kc ive got to fix my socks, kc, sobrang paltos na ung right foot ko. Tas sbi ko "Wag kang titingin!" kc he was looking ba nman. Sbi ko "Wag kang titingin sbi!" So he looked away. Kaso, when I removed my shoe, he looked! I said "Aaaaaaaddi! ANO BA!" and he just laughed and said "Wla na. Nakita ko na eh." Oh God. I wanted to punch him at that time. Kc Yuck nman tlga noh. Paltos2x yung paa ko nun, anlayo ng nilakad ko. Tas aun, 2mayo na ko. Eh c Addi ung nagdadala ng bag ko and i was complaining about how hot it is. So he was like "Ang arte n2." pero he opened my bag and got my fan 4 me. Tas i looked at him, tas natawa ko. Sbi ko "Addi, mukha kang bakla!" THEN he said "Okay lng noh. Mas maganda nga un eh." God he's so weird. So un. Tas aun, naglakad na kme papuntang dapitan gate. Marami pa kmeng napag-usapan. Kung ano ano lng. Tas dumating na kmeng Dapitan gate, andun yung lolo ko. So i quickly pushed him away saying "bye!" The end. =)

1st day funk!

2005-06-15T23:09:00.000Z

Haaaay... This day is one heck of a day. =) My God. Pagkagcng ko, chi-neck ko muna ung fone ko. Two msgs frm him, one from Gie and one from Izel. Tas aun, Ligo, bihis, kain. Tas puntang UST! =) Ngkta kme ni Gie, (may ksama ciang Aimee girl) tas aun, Hug2x, kmustahan. (Pra nmang di kme nag-usap nung knagabihan lng! Hahaha! )Tas aun. 1st pd. na. Chem Lab. Gri-noup kme. Ka-group ko c Guillen, c Odessa and c Mae. C Guillen ung grp. leader. Aq ung secretary. Permanent grouping na daw un. Aus lng nman. So much happened. =) My classmates are okay. Tas they're smart. (Which made me run, straight to my Chem. book as soon as I got home, to review.) Galing tlga. Ung Chem Lab teacher nmen mukha nmang mbait. Tas ung Philosophy teacher nmen, witty and funny. Kso ung Chem Lec teacher nmen, nkakatakot. Feeling ko ang taray nia. Pero ok lng, mganda nman cia eh. Hehe! Aral nlng ako ng mabuti para di ako mpagalitan sa fu2re if ever. =) Tas ngkta kme ni Bagie! (I MISS HER! So so so much! Cia lng nkakaintindi sken kpag nsa 3rd degree aq ng paranoia or kpag ngiging tragically-poetic-but-romantic-idealist ako! I super miss her.) pati ni Kelly (Friend ko from Clarette. Yes, a guy na Kelly ang name. Mbait un!) tas iba pang mga theresians. Msaya tlga. Ksma ko buong day c Odessa, Mae and Kathlyn. Nung huli, c Ralph (from Don Bosco) din. Tas ngkita kme ni Nina. Hehe. Parehas na ulit kme ng skul. Thankfully, everyone was friendly enuf. =) Buti nman. Hehe! =) Kc friendly nman ako...i think. Haha! Tas nakita ko c Tash! Tashie! Parang gumanda ka. No joke! 22o! =) Hehe. Ano pa ba? Basically, un na un. Cnundo aq ng parents ko around 3:30pm. Aun. Un lng. I had a great first day. =)

PS: GIE!!! KAW LNG BESTFRIEND KO IN D WHOLE WIDE UNIVERSE 4EVR AND EVER!!! I LOVE U!! =)

Ma-Sing!

2005-06-14T16:17:00.000Z

I know, that it's way too late for me to be posting this entry, about my trip to SINGAPORE-MALAYSIA, but I figured that i've got to post this entry anyway, even without pictures. Kc, wala akong digi-cam. So malamang, ung mga pictures, nsa cellphone ng dad ko (na nsa zambales PA.) at ung iba, nsa digi-cam ni tta Elaine (na wala akong ka-contact2x, simula nung bumalik kme ng Pilipinas.) at walang mangyayari kung hihintayin ko pa ung mga pix. Lalo lng akong walang mapo-post. Anyway, Singapore was B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. Its like, Makati-Timog-Libis all rolled into one and turned into a country. Makati-because of the tall buildings. Timog-because of the vast array of restaurants and Libis-because of all the colorful lights. Singapore is like, WAY too clean. It will almost make you think, if the country is run by neat-freak dictators. The roads were wide, smooth and endless! Walang traffic. Galing. Tas they've got surveilance cameras all over the place. YES. Even public ROADS. Talk about discipline. Bawal nga bubble gum eh. Hahaha. Pero you've got to admire those people. The orderliness of Singapore only shows that the people there, really value their country. Tas Sentosa was good! Ung musical fountain nakaka-bilib. Ung underwater world....So-so. Mas Maganda Ocean Park sa HongKong. Tas ung bird park and zoo nila maganda. Mejo nakakatakot nga lng ung zoo, coz the animals are practically free! Hello??? Naglalakad ka bigla ka nlng may makakasalubong na peacock or monkey. Pero nung huli, nasanay na ko. Now. Malaysia. W-ell... Malaysia also looks great... Pero mas parang PILIPINAS. Kc, ok. Fine. Malinis din, pero may mga parts na hindi. Tas e2! Punta kmeng Genting! Genting is like, one little city, built on a mountain top. Ganda dun. Inter-connected lahat! Its like, one big entertainment place! It's like, a theme park, a mall, a hotel, a water park (though i dont know who'll be crazy enough to swim in that freezing weather...nsa taas ng bundok un, remember?), a cinema complex with alot of restaurants thrown in between. So, gets? Ang galing. tas di mo na kelangan lumabas. Kc nga interconnected. Mode of transportation dun cable cars. Which kinda freaked my mom out, kc nga she's got a problem with heights. Tas i rode this ride called the space shot, which is kinda like bungee jumping. Pero nsa chair ka. Dahan2x kang iaakyat, 20 stories high (tas nsa taas ka pa ng bundok, so, basically, i almost killed myself for letting my dad drag me into it nung nsa tuktok na at malapit na kong ibagsak.) tas bigla kang ibabagsak! Syet! I got the shock of my life there! HINDI KO NA ULIT GAGAWIN UN. EVER. Pero it did me good. Kc, after nun, i can ride anything na eh. I rode 4 different roller coasters. Ung isa may dalawang loop. Ung isa, parang nakahiga ka, tas may tatlong loop (favorite ko yun!) tas ung dalawa, walang loop. Mga fall lng. Aun. Brain-dead na ata ako nun eh. Imagine, me??? Sasakay sa ganun? Eh di ko nga sinakyan space shuttle eh. Pero kc, naisip ko nun, "its now or never." eh E.K. pwede mong puntahan kht kelan eh. So ung thought na un ung nagpasakay sken dun sa mga rides na un. Tas ano pa ba? Hmmm...marami pa eh. Kaso tinatamad na ko. (Tinatamad pa daw ako sa lagay na toh o. Hahaha!) Aun. That's basically it. PERO XEMPRE. Alam nio pinaka-magandang bansa? XEMPRE PHILIPPINES! Papatalo ko ba naman toh. Hehehe. Kht ano pang sbhn nila, at kahit ano pang meron sila, i love the Philippines, and that's what makes her the most beautiful country, in my eyes. Baboosh! ;)

Bye

2005-05-25T05:53:00.000Z

Hey people! (Its 5:50 AM and im blogging NA! ) Matagal akong mawawala... haaaay.... next entry ko after half a month na!!! Hay grabe. Matagl tagal din yun! Kc two weeks kme sa singapore, malaysia and indonesia eh. So un. Sa lahat ng taong ndi ako nakapag-paalam, e2 na ung goodbye ko. Ok? ;-) Tas sa mga ka-txt ko, i cnt txt u guys muna, kc alam nio nman ang presyo ng mga ganung txts dba? (My mom specifically 4bid it! Ang taas na daw ng bill ko. Addi! No txting 4 14 days straight!!) So un. Paxenxa muna. Bon Voyage! (4 me??? Hahahahaha!) =)

tagal na dn noh?

2005-05-09T21:22:00.000Z

Haaay grabe...Antagal na din since nung last post ko noh? Hehe. Pano ba nman kc...nagsasawa na kong kaka-diary...meron akong blog, meron akong isa pang secret blog, meron akong scrapbook/diary, meron akong organizer/diaRy, meron pang talagang diary, meron pa kong diary na dedicated lng para sa iisang tao(napupuno kc lhat ng diary ko, na puro name lng nia laman eh), may diary pa ko na puro secrets lng and meron pa kong diary na lahat poems lang. Yup. Lahat updated. E2 na nga pinaka-hindi eh...Alam nio, sa dinami dami ng diary ko,feeling ko, dadating yung oras na gani2 nlng masusulat ko "Dear Diary, nagsulat ako kninang 1pm sa poem-diary ko, tas knina nmang 4pm, sa organizer diary ko, tas ngaun ngaun lng na mga 6pm, i went online....para i-upd8 nman ung online diary ko..." and ayoko nman noh! Haha! Kc wala ng mangyayari sa buhay ko. If I'm like, too busy writing EVERYTHING that's happening to me...I might just miss everything which is happening to me...You guys get that, right? Right. Well anyway, guess wat? It is so HOT these days! (ok, hanna, give us NEWS?) and I like, went malling for three-days straight! (Well i didnt exactly sleep there, but you get the point.) Hurray for air conditioning!!!! =) Oh and guess wat? Since the weather is scorchingly hot?? I had gotten my hair cut short! No joke there. ;)

PS: Oh no! The dreaded day is drawing near!!! May 11!!! It's just coming too fast... ='(

I darkened

2005-04-30T21:56:00.000Z

Kakagaling ko lng ng fontana, and guess what? I darkened. NO. Ndi cia TAN...more like BROWN if u ask me. Haaaay. Ayan. Proof na umitim ako.

WALA!

2005-04-24T22:00:00.000Z

UST enrollment was pure torture! I mean, helloOoO??? Tama ba nman kcng isabay kme sa COMMERCE?? Sa COMMERCE?? andami kayang course nun! Haaay...aun. Siksikan. Pero it was...fulfilling. Hehehe. Excited na ko! Section 11 ako (Whadya expect?? ALphabetical!)! Meron na kong kilalang clasmates ko! (Sa daldal ko ba nman.) Aun....ano pa ba nangyari? Ah oo! Khapon pumunta ako sa house nila addi. Birthday nia kc. Chiqui was with me. Aun, it was okay. His mom's reeeeeeeaaally nice. And he seems....uhm...busy. Aun. Yun lng.

what's happening 2 me?!?

2005-04-13T21:55:00.000Z

Okay, much as I hate 2 admit it, I think I'm losing my writer's touch. Why??? That's because, I can't seem to write ANYTHING worth reading! It's stupid, really. Since I'm a CWJ student, but its just that, I seem to be suffering from writer's block! AND WHAT'S WORSE, is that, I don't know if this is JUST a writer's block, OR if circumstances were different I might even be losing it ENTIRELY and permanently! Heaven knows I can't even construct a perfect sentence these days! How awful! I mean, for me. Because writing is my first love, my very being, my passion! SO why is this happening?? Everytime I think of something good, I always try to write it, but that doesn't seem to be working because the written piece seems like the more boring (and maybe even hundred times duller) version of what I've thought of! Is this because of emotional stress? Heck! I don't even know if I'm under stress right now. I know what I should be doing, I should be practicing! But how could I? I don't even seem to have any ideas left inside my brain. I don't know, I don't know what's been happening! And sometimes, I go through my old journals and short stories, even my poems and they have this certain "charm" which I couldn't capture anymore with my present compositions. It's like, a different person wrote it! I know it sounds stupid, but that's what I feel! AND this, coming from me! The girl who loves writing so much, she even risks not listening to her physics teacher just so she can continue with whatever story she's working on at that time. I pity myself. The only thing which I am really passionate about is slipping and is nearly out of reach. My reach anyway. Sometimes, when I see people scribbling effortlesly, I feel a pang of jealousy. I used to be like that. But for goodness sake! I don't even know what they're writing about! It might even be their grocery list for tomorrow for all I care! SEE WHAT I MEAN???? I'M LOSING IT! This entry is completely non-sense! But I can't help it. I NEED to write. Even if that means terrible writing.

QUIz ulit

2005-04-13T20:16:00.000Z

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another quiz

2005-04-12T00:01:00.000Z

Your Love Number is

6

Who you fall in love with is all about who you trust.
Loyalty is important to you, and you want the most faithful of lovers.
In return, you never let your heart or eyes wander.
Open and honest, your relationships tend to be free of secrets.

What Is Your Love Number?

alien

2005-04-11T09:35:00.000Z

You Are 25% Normal

(Occasionally Normal)

You sure do march to your own beat...

But you're so weird, people wonder if it's a beat at all

You think on a totally different wavelength

And it's often a chore to get people to understand you

How Normal Are You?

quizzes!

2005-04-08T22:22:00.000Z

I took a quiz! And it tells you, about how you view life! =) Well, here's my result.

Life is good and bad. You know it can never be
perfect and that it never have been, and you're
fine with that. You still feel it's important
to live life since it can end any day and not
sulk because of some little failure in life.
You are often a happy person, still you don't
laugh all the time. You have a somewhat calm
aura and most people feel comfortable around
you.

How do you see life? .::minor update::.
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Wla lng

2005-04-06T22:12:00.000Z

Haaaaay...Walang nangyari sken 2day. Super boring. Pero! May nangyari sken last Sunday! =D Last Sunday, was the Graduation Ball of San Beda, and I was there, with, OF COURSE, sino pa ba, Addi. It was fun. I think everyone had fun. Ayon. Yun lang. Um...actually, marami pa, SUPER! =) kaso nga lang...nakakailang ilagay dito eh. So...un. Bsta lng malagay ko dito ung event kasi hindi nanaman ako nakakapag-update. Ay! Oo nga pla, Take nio ung quiz ko. Under the "About the Writer" , click nio ung link na "Take my quiz" Hah! Tingnan natin kung sinong may future na maging manghuhula. ;p

bicol shnicol

2005-03-29T00:40:00.000Z

I hav just been from Bicol... Ugh! I don't know, but I just don't like it there. Ok, so the Mayon volcano was breath-takingly beautiful, as always and the Cagsawa ruins would still giv you that feel of history, but what the heck! I hate it there pa rin KC! My lola's house is like, filled with ghosts! M not kidding. Umiyak na nga ung isang cousin ko sa sobrang takot eh. Pft! Ndi kc sanay. As for me? Hehehe. Ok lang. Ndi cla nagpaparamdam. C dad nga lng, malas. Kc skanya nagpapa(Ndi na "ramdam" ung tamang word eh)PANSIN to the max. Hahaha! So we couldn't sleep eh. (I so totally hate it when I wake up in the middle of the night because a face is like, staring at me, na 10 cm lng ata ung layo.) So we checked in nlng sa Manor. Galing. Meron dun, incoming 2nd year college, trinity nag-aaral. Nursing dn. My dad was talking 2 him nga eh. Kala ko nung una, customer lng dn, un pla cia ung anak nung may ari. Ayun, tas ok lng dn naman. Kc I got to visit my relatives. (NO. WAY. HINDI. AKO. BOCOLANA!!! I. WAS. BORN. HERE. AND. I. GREW. UP. HERE. ALSO. WHICH. MEANS. TAGA-MANILA AKO!!!OK????) C lola Colly, lola Cobing, lolo Boy, tto George and tta Farah! Tas mga bagong addition sa family nmen, c tto Jerique (husband ni tta farah) and c Isabel Faye! Ung baby nila. AUN. Tas may mga nakaka-badtrip na nangyari...pero ok na dn un. aun lng.

...

2005-03-21T23:09:00.000Z

You Have A Type B+ Personality

B+

You're a pro at going with the flow
You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer
A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.

While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.
Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done
You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

Practice makes perfect but nobody's perfect...so y practice?

2005-03-17T22:34:00.000Z

My Gawd!! Super boooring talaga ng mga practices nmen. AS IN. Wala kmeng ibang ginawa kundi kumanta ng kumanta ng KUMANTA!!! Tas kung hindi, magmamarch. If you ask me, pointless talaga. I mean, sure. Kelangan ng practice pero hindi nman gani2 kasobra! O.A. na kc eh. And! Sa sobrang boring, meron na kmeng nagawang group nila chiqui. Which is....the "Girla-loo-loo-loo-loo-loo" group. Hehehehe. OO NGA PLA!! I almost forgot! Addi went over 2 our house last monday! Ipinaalam niya ko sa parents ko, for the graduation ball. Tapos nun, naglaro lng kami ng card games and board games kasama si Mitzie and Halecx. That's all! =)

bad!!!

2005-03-09T21:11:00.000Z

Pumunta ko knina sa house ni Gie. Para sa feasibility. Pero ndi yun yung tlgang nangyari eh. KASI! Feeling ko super busy ko ngaung araw na to isipin niyo nlng. From bahay to school, from school to GK, from GK to school, from school to bahay, from bahay to gie's house, from gie's house to school, from school to...bsta! ANDAMI! Naku. Busy na tlga. Iba na talaga kpag nagcocomplete ng requirements. SUPER HECTIC NG SCHEDULE. Di ko nga alam kung bat nag-bblog ako ngaun eh...dapat naghahagilap na ko ng guide questions nung Palihan notebook...or music notebook, or P.E. notebook...or ERFS...or yung Micropaper ng p6 nung 3rd quarter...or yung micropaper sa Eco. nung 3rd quarter...or yung flowcharts ng 3rd and 4th quarter sa comp...or ung anthology ko sa CWJ...or...hay...the list goes on. I'm tired.

BLACK CATS...turning red.

2005-03-08T18:08:00.000Z

Today, IV-4, held the tribute to parents. It was fine! IT was fine. NOT me. Okay, so here's why. We, the jellicle cats are supposed to perform our "Jellicle Ball" number from our musical play. So, Cylynne and I are supposed to have the sexiest costumes, since in the play, we were Demeter and Bombalurinna. (We did the Macavity dance...it was...um...not so wholesome? But hey! I was assigned to the character, and she was SUPOSSED to be like that. Whadya expect? That I dont play the part?) Now the jellicle ball is composed of all the cats included in the play. Since every cat in the jellicle ball have roles, I still played Demeter. SO I wore the costume which I wore on the play. BUT guess what? Just when we were all changing into our costumes I just realized that I made a really really really terrible mistake. (I forgot about the whole performance and I even have to call home to ask my mom to bring the DEMETER outfit.) The bra which I was wearing was really...um...lets just say that my um...uh...my =THAT-word-here= were sort of obvious because the shirt which I was wearing was kind of tight. (I normally wear those kinds of bras because we have undershirts on besides. ) SO...uhmm...PANIC?!? I even asked some of my classmates who were changing if it was obvious. It was. So what did I do? I cant dance like THAT. Then I thought of something! Who on earth would help you get out of these sticky (not to mention embarassing) situations who wouldn't mind getting themselves into it as well??? GIE!!! So I ran inside the IMC, told her about the whole thing and Haha! No more worrying! We both ran into the C.R. exchanged undergarments (since she was wearing the school uniform.) and tada! Problem solved...one problem down, one more to go! Besides that, I also didn't have any black leggings to wear under my not-so-long skirt. So I wore a pair of black stockings instead. Big mistake. While we were performing, guess what happened? Correct! But it was okay, since it didn't show for long because one of my classmates quickly noticed and told me. (Sigh) can you believe how crazy this day was? How embarassing right??? Thank God I'm leaving STC! Hahahahaha!

P.S. Gie, thank you thank you...oh! ANd sorry kung nasagasaan ka sa pagtawid natin kanina. Hehehehehe! Hindi nman cguro cnasadya nung driver. Sana hindi maxado sumakit paa mo dahil dun sa tricycle na yun.

Dapat masaya na dba?

2005-03-05T21:54:00.000Z

Okay! Sooo hahaha! Finally! Tapos na rin sa wakas ang fourth quarter exams namen!!! I know I'm supposed to be rejoicing, and believe me, I AM. Kaso nga lng kasi, bwisit talaga yung Trigonometry exam nmen. Ugh! Sabi ko na eh! SABI na dn ng ibang taong nakausap ko! Na nakakatakot talaga yung ginawa ni Sir Viloria. Kc c Sir pa? Eh Hello?? Hobby nga nun na mang-torture ng students eh. Pwera nga lng c Gzel. Malamang crush nia yun. Mabait yun dun. . . so, as I was saying, nakakatakot dahil nagpagamit ba nman ng CALCULATOR! tapos pinasulat kme sa index card ng formulas. . . suspicious, no? PERO THE POINT IS!!! Ang hirap hirap hirap talaga! Kahit cguro yung calculator andun, tas yung index card, tapos pabuksan pa nia yung math notebook and math book nmen, tapos ipag-pair pair pa nia kme, wala parin kmeng magagawa. Super talaga, hindi ako nag-oO.A. may iba nga umiyak, tas may nagmura, may nagalit, may natulala, may sabi ng sabi na ". . . wala na. . . summer graduate na ko. . . wala na. . . sira na kinabukasan ko. . ." seryoso! Tas ako nman grabe. Ikot ako ng ikot sa classroom, tinatanong yung mga classmates ko kung parehas ba nila ko na over frustrated about the test. Their answer? OO daw. It IS sort of comforting to know that, dba? At least your not in it alone. Pero kahit na. Bwisit tlga. . . Haaay. . . Kaso tapos na yun. So wla na ring use para magmukmok. So. . . why waste time? Hehehehe! HAVE FUN NA! As if nman magiging summer grad ako dahil dun. Tas kahit mag-75 pa yung grade ko, who cares?? I'm off to college and as if nman may implication pa yung grades ko ngaun pinasa na ko ng UST! Whoo! As long as I graduate. That's all there is to it. =D ! Happy days are here again! Babalik na yung "Sunny, fun-loving and Optimistic" ME! Whee!! Sorry sa mga taong napagbuntungan ko ng kasungitan ko dahil nakaka-init nman tlga ng ulo yung school work. Promise! Nice girl na ulit ako. Hehehehehehe! =D

MY THANK YOU SPEECH

2005-03-03T15:46:00.000Z

Okay, so we had the RHGP session yesterday and I think that it was supposed to be melodramatic or sumthin, BUT since Ms. Amores (our guidance counselor) conducted that THANK-YOU-SORRY thingie in IV-4...it turned out to be...uhm...let's just say LESS than serious. Anyway! I think that I sort of forgot to mention some people in my thank-you speech...so...here it is. ;)

THANK YOU kay Gie, para sa lahat ng recess at lunch times na magkasabay tayo, mula nung grade four hanggang sa mga susunod pa. THANK YOU sa lahat ng pinahiram mong mga bagay-bagay. THANK YOU sa pagturo sakin kung pano mag-apply ng make-up. THANK YOU din sa pagturo sakin kung pano tumawid sa mga kalsada. THANK YOU for introducing me to MRT. THANK YOU sa paghihimay ng lahat ng isda at manok na kinain ko sa cafeteria. THANK YOU dahil nakikipagpalit ka ng step-in twing malapit ng matuklap yung skin ko sa paa. (Yuck) THANK YOU din for being there para sa lahat ng mga escapades ko at THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for being a part of my many happy memories. Yung iba nga dun ikaw pa mismo gumawa. ;) Tapos, THANK YOU kay Bagie, for being a friend. Blessing ka talaga sa buhay ko. Di mo lang alam kung gano. THANK YOU at kasama kita lagi dahil malamang magkasunod ang class number natin. THANK YOU dahil sabay nating pinag-nasaan yung role ni Roxanne sa cats. THANK YOU for being a confidante who NEVER spills. THANK YOU dahil pinasaya mo ang bawat araw ng high school life ko sa mga jokes mo. THANK YOU dahil naiintindihan mo ang sudden rush of "poetic floodgates" ko. THANK YOU dahil lagi mong alam kung ano yung mali sa buhay ko. THANK YOU dahil mahal mo pa rin ako kahit mahal ko ang PINK at mahal mo ang BLUE. THANK YOU sa lahat ng mga letters na ni-letter mo saken. THANK YOU for understanding my VERY BEING. Kay Chiqui. THANK YOU DIN. THANK YOU sa lahat ng late afternoons natin together. THANK YOU for making me laugh. THANK YOU for being there with me through thick and thin. THANK YOU for sharing my insights about our OB 1s and OB 2s. You know what I mean. Let me tell you, you made me feel a lot better talaga! THANK YOU kay Amor. THANK YOU dahil feeling ko, napapagaan yung mga problema ko twing nakakausap mo ko. THANK YOU din sa lahat ng CWJ classes together. THANK YOU sa pag-iintindi sa mga wild mood swings ko. THANK YOU dahil naging friend mo ko, kahit na exact opposite tayo. (Yknw? I'm all about bright colors, rainbows, clouds and unicorns and you're all about dark hues, black eyeliners, coffee and...uh...other mature stuff.) THANK YOU kay Jovian. THANK YOU dahil ako ang pinapagawa mo ng lahat ng responsorial psalm mo, twing may prayer service, THANK YOU dahil ako yung pinagawa mo ng formal theme mo sa English. Bakit? Kasi, you make me feel important and needed! =) THANK YOU kay Tricia! Ang ganda mong seatmate. THANK YOU for being with me sa Camarin. THANK YOU dahil I had fun, playing with our paper dolls, THANK YOU din dun sa memory natin of Coco (the flightless bird). THANK YOU kay Camille sa lahat ng coupon bonds at stapler na hiniram ko sayo. THANK YOU kay Manong Justin! Sa lahat ng anime at OJ stories na shinare mo saken. THANK YOU kay Badet. Sobrang THANK YOU at friend kita! THANK YOU for listening to my endless rants and raves. THANK YOU kay Kathy. THANK YOU for accompanying me sa mga inom-inom sa drinking fountain. THANK YOU kay Sai. The best drummer ka talaga in the whole world. THANK YOU sayo dahil sobrang nakaka-relate ako sa mga Paula stories mo. THANK YOU kay Ira. Sa mga teachers na pinagtripan natin ng hindi nila nalalaman. THANK YOU at pinauso mo sa buhay ko ang leteran through comic strips. THANK YOU kay Cy, inintroduce mo ko sa Caramel Cream ng starbucks...pero ngayon ayoko na yun, pero thanks 4 introducing me pa rin! THANK YOU din for sharing my cravings for yogurt. THANK YOU din kay Tash. THANK YOU dahil hindi ka boring na kaharap. THANK YOU dahil ang dami mong kwento at hindi ako nakatulog sa mga physics classes. THANK YOU kay Mariae. Sa mga gabi bago ang physics test. THANK YOU kay Jennielyn Doria. Pinataas mo lahat ng grades ko nung second year dahil sa katahimikan mo kaya malamang wala na kong ibang choice kundi makinig sa teacher. THANK YOU kay Roszanne at sa short story nateng "Stuck on an Island with _____" nung third year. THANK YOU din dahil kanta tayo ng kanta nun na kulang nalang ihagis na tayo sa labas ng classroom para lang tumahimik. THANK YOU din pala kay Roxanne. Ang girl na lagi kong kasama sa gate seven. THANK YOU sa mga food trip natin! THANK YOU nga rin pala kay Jessa! First year! First time ko ring napalabas ng classroom nun at kasama kita. =D Thank You rin pala kay Phoebe at sa lahat ng personality quizzes na natapos ko nung katabi kita.(O ayan huli ka ha?) THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU NA RIN SA MGA NAKALIMUTAN KONG ISULAT DITO, HINDI KO SINASADYA. THANK YOU SA INYONG LAHAT. THANK YOU IV-4. My highschool life would have been dull without you. I wouldn't have it any other way. I LOVE YOU.

The color of the next SY is WHITE!

2005-03-01T21:32:00.000Z

I'm so happy! I'm so happy! I'm sooo happy! I PASSED UST NURSING!!! YEY!!! Yep! I got through the entrance exam, the interview, the physical test and the grade examination!!! Whoohoo!!! =D !!! For enrollment na ko! I'm sooo sooo soooo sooooo happy. Xempre this means na I have a school na 4 sure. Haaaay...for the mean time... Let's get through physics first. Hahahahaha! =)

M blogging again!

2005-02-25T18:28:00.000Z

Yey! I finally found a new design for my blog! ^_^ The old one was getting really...old. Mawawalan ka tlga ng ganang mag-blog. But! This one's new! Which means I'll be blogging more often na. Now, let's just wait 4 something to happen...that way, I could blog about it! ^_^

Bandfest...rocked?

2005-02-12T02:02:00.000Z

I woke up at about 5:30 pm. I groaned. 'My God! My head's about to explode! Darn that newsletter!' I thought. I haven't had a decent sleep for three days in a row. After ten minutes of just lying there in bed half asleep, I nearly jumped out of my skin! OH GOD!! BANDFEST NGA PALA NGAUN!!! So, aun. I took a bath, dried my hair, got dressed went off. Only guess wat?? ANG TRAFFIC! So botton line? I MISSED MURJ'S PERFORMANCE! I felt sooo bad tlga. Super guilty, as in. Pero the night was fun dn. Kc I spent time with everyone. I spent time with Addi,Marc and Romeo, with my classmates, with Kuya OJ pero ksama ko tlga all the time c Chiqui. =)Aun... =)

BEST OUTBOUND EVER!

2005-02-05T16:33:00.000Z

Oh God!!! OUTBOUND NAMIN YESTERDAY AND LET ME TELL YOU! IT WAS THE BEST OUTBOUND EVER!!! Ahahahahaha! I could sing for a WHOLE day... i cant say much here kc bka...uh...wala. =)

*River,nails,wounds,jokes,purple flowers,e-heads,caves and ALMOST falling...

Sa tagal ng panahon...

2005-01-22T17:49:00.000Z

Its been quite a while since i last blogged. Kc ang daming gnagawa eh..ano ba nangyari lately? Hmmm...wala tlga. Oh well! I'm just blogging sumtin para medyo ma-update nman 2. =)

Greek mythology!

2005-01-22T05:56:00.000Z

Oh! I just remembered! We have this monologue in english and we got to pick greek mythology characters! Originally, I wanted to be PERSEPHONE! She's my favorite goddess! She's this girl who got abducted by Hades (Beauty and the Beast was based on this story.) and was made Queen of the underworld out of her freewill. Demeter her mother (Goddess of harvest) got all sad and threatened to impose eternal winter which will kill all mortals! Zeus got worried because without mortals, no one would worship the Gods! Zeus made Hades give Persephone back but it was too late! Persephone already ate sumtin from the underworld which bounds her there! So they made a deal. Half of the year, Persephone stays with Demeter and half of the year she stays with Hades! AND THAT'S THE REASON WHY WE HAVE SPRING, SUMMER, FALL AND WINTER! uh...too bad i picked the fates! Pero i switched nlng into Echo. I'll tell you her lonely story some other time...

Palihan sunk in?!?

2005-01-15T21:14:00.000Z

Our last visit to the Palihan community, took place yesterday. I dont really know why, but...I was sorta touched...Am I a softie? I guess so, coz in some way...I got attached to the community..and knowing that it was gonna be the last visit...kinda made me teary eyed...Hehehehe...

Mcdo retiro

2005-01-12T21:44:00.000Z

"Hanna, dadating siya mamaya." Those were Bagie's exact words. I looked at her with a raised eyebrow. "Who?" I asked. "You know very well who."she answered.

Addi, JC, Jessie, and Mikko went to STC last Tuesday. Bagie arranged the whole thing because Mikko wanted to see Badet. Bagie told me that I HAVE TO go. Because Addi was going to be there and I wouldn't want to let him down after last wednesday. So I agreed. Addi and I talked. Yes! A real conversion, instead of just sitting there and uh...just....sitting there some more. You get the picture. Aun. We had a great time. He was finally opening up. Hahahaha! Oh yeah! And after everyone left, except JC, (Gie, had to go somewhere "really quick" DAW.) Addi got...uh...well...well, he wanted to look at my Math notebook. It went like this...

A: "Hanna, patingin ng math notebook mo."
H: "Why?"
A: "Para malaman ko kung ano na yung lessons na natapos nio."
H: "Uh...hindi talaga pwede."
A: "Hanna, please?"
H: "No."
A: "Okay, sige. Yung cover lang."
H: "Okay." *Hands Addi her math ntbk
A: "....ay! Hindi pala talaga to ung original cover!"
H: "Duh! Malamang." *Rolls eyes
A: "ah..." *Tries opening the ntbk
H: *Yanks the ntbk back. "What are you doing?!?"
A: "Eh kasi patingin na nga!"
H: "Hindi nga pwede!!"
A: "Hanna, alam mo...SORRY!" *Tries to get Hanna's math ntbk.
*TUG-O-WAR BEGINS
H: "ANO BA??!?"
A: "E...KAC! Patingin NGA!"
H: "ADDI! HINDI NGA PWEDE!!"
A: "Hanna! Eto lang di mo pa ko mapagbigyan!!!"
H: "Addi!!! Bat ba kasi?!?!"
A: "Alam mo, Sorry talaga!"
H: "Kaya nga stop it!!"
A: "Patingin na kasi!!"
H: "Ayoko nga eh!"
A: "Hanna, sige na!"
H: "Alam mo, hindi nga pwede!"
A: "Bat ba ayaw mo?!?"
H: "Eh ayaw ko eh!"

*After 10 million years of tug-o-war.

H: "Alam mo Addi, hindi na nakakatuwa ah!!!"
A: "Hanna..."
H: "Ano?? Di na ko nagbibiro."
A: *Let's go of the notebook

then I noticed people looking at us murmuring stuff like, "Fraternal twins noh?" "Hindi naman, magkapatid lang." "Kambal yan." "Hindi noh". Aun. 5:10 na, so I had to go home. So that's probably everything.

*Gie was there but Teejay wasn't...wonder what's happening? Gie seemed...well...bothered.

Intramz!!!

2005-01-07T21:08:00.000Z

Yehey! We won!!! My classmates kc wer so good! Tashie and Gie! You guys are my favorite volleyball players! Hmm...the game was really fun! Especially when IV-4 won against this certain section. Hehehe. After we've won, they were like "O maski ba! Mas maganda naman kme!!!" Hahahahaha! How stupid IS that??? We're talking about VOLLEYBALL here! And guess what also? After IV-4 were declared as the champion, they were still cheering for the "other" (See??? If you guys are so good, then why didn't you even reach the championship round? Just to compete and EVENTUALLY be beaten by US???) team. Two words. SORE LOSERS. And oh yeah! We won in Tiakad! Hahaha! AS IF that actually counts.

PS. Quit messing my tag-board up and stop pretending that you're ME. Just...stop it and do something more worthwhile with your life.

Tiakad...Sniakad!

2005-01-03T16:58:00.000Z

I can't believe it. I cannot believe it. Okay. I can believe it and I know that its true... but I definitely wish that it isn't. Sigh... School starts on wed! and there's no stoping it! Although it's kind of "okay" if you think about it. Kc intrams naman e. Aun. But...well...intrams or not, I'd still prefer NOT to go to school. Besides, I'm in the Tiakad team. Duh. No one wants to be in the Tiakad team. It's the most pressuring game EVER. I mean...Come ON! Its the only event in which, spectators aren't allowed to make the slightest bit of noise. No, you're not allowed to breathe either....that is...if you don't want your team to lose. Okay, you can't make noise when you're watching chess also, because it would ruin your player's concentration, but what the heck! No one expects you to win anyway. So that's why I still think that Tiakad's the MOST pressuring game ever. Oh yeah! And did I mention the risk you have to take when you're in the Tiakad team??? Oh that's right! I haven't. So anyway, to all those people who want to be popular, join the team! Coz you really are gonna be! After taking that, (Take your pick! Every Tiakad player has experienced these!) Nose-dive, Summer sault, Tumbling, Trip, Falling face-flat on the muddy lawn or that well-known collision with the other unfortunate tiakad player who's beside you! I guarantee! You'd be popular in three seconds flat! So the risk is... being the laughing stock of the month!!! (What? Me? OH! I'm immuned to these kinds of embarassing things! Manhid na ko. Pagnahulog ako, tayo lang ulit! Tuloy lang yung laban! Sige lng ng sige. The same goes with my other teammates.) Which is well-worth it anyway, after your team wins the championship!

Some poor people...

2005-01-03T12:13:00.000Z

Someone has got it in for me. I dont know why he's picking a fight. I didn't do anything. What is HIS problem? His friends told me that he'd probably spread rumors, but its ok though, coz no one will take him seriously anyway. Hahaha! He's not worth it. Puh-leaze! I wont SINK ALL THE WAY DOWN to his level.

2004-12-30T20:54:00.000Z

We (My whole family and I) watched Disney on Ice yesterday! The show was totally awesome! They did the "Princess Classics" this year which sort of explains why I liked it sooo much. The ice skaters were impressive. Although some made a couple of mistakes. (Okay, well...I DID secretly wish that one of them would screw up or something. BAD! I know. I know. But sometimes you really can't help it, right? RIGHT???) But the best part was the performance of "THE LITTLE MERMAID" woohoo! Loved that one! (But! If you look at the story itself though! I wouldn't EXACTLY recommend it to children! Bad influence! Imagine! An ambitious 16 year old girl, disobeying her father, submitting into evil and turning her back against her own people just for a MAN! And she doesn't even KNOW him! How stupid and treacherous can you get??? And the thought of getting married at the age of SIXTEEN?!? Tsk..tsk..) Sleeping Beauty was the worst part. BO-RRRIINGGG! Mulan the skater was really skilled. Doing all those twists and turns and complicated moves. Aladdin, well! Aladdin looked...GOOD. =) But honestly? This wasn't exactly their greatest performance (Disney on Ice, I mean.) The Disney on Ice a couple of years ago did this "Anniversary Special" and it was way, way! Better. That's all. =D.

Xmas was...OK

2004-12-26T16:49:00.000Z

I don't know where to begin... What to say or do. This situation is HOPELESS!!! My God HOW HOW HOW do YOU expect ME to react ANYWAY?!? Oh yeah! I forgot! YOU'RE like... the NICEST person around! Oh! AND the SWEETEST also! That's why it's PERFECTLY ACCEPTABLE for you to spread goodwill and LOVE to all man AND WOMANkind! Hahahaha! Sooo sorry! MY mistake! HA-HA-HA! I did NOT say anything in the fisrt place! I just kept my MOUTH shut, just in case you didn't notice. Which means that I must be...oh you KNOW?? Of course YOU KNOW! THINKING! Thinking about WHY? OR HOW? OR maybe WHO??? I wasn't ANGRY. I wasn't MAD. I was just PONDERING! Of course I felt like I was fooled...but I wanted to make it OKAY again when Gie EXPLAINED everything...but since YOU posted something like THAT! Then what the heck, right??? So it's my fault NOW. MY fault. MY FAULT because I didn't ask YOU. AND you've got EVERYONE'S sympathy! Wow. So I guess I'm the BAD guy here. AND you're the misunderstood person. You were just being KIND. I KNOW. Well whatever! If you want this to go ON like this then FINE. Have it your way...

My pointless but FUN day...

2004-12-24T14:32:00.000Z

Sometimes, you just don't see the world the way you used to. Sometimes, you just stop and wonder about what's happening to you. And most of the time, you don't really know. So what do you do? Nothing. You just stare at an empty space. Thinking. But guess what? You also don't know what to think about. You know actually...but you just won't admit it. So what happens is, you think about all sort of things just to get your mind off the THING which you are actually dying to think of. But you'll end up thinking about the THING which you don't want to think about anyway. See, that's what's been happening to me yesterday. I woke up and just...stayed there in bed. Feeling numb. Just staring at the ceiling. It didn't last though coz my Mom told me to get out of bed because the maid's going to clean the room. So what did I do? Simple. I called my bestfriend. I didn't have to worry about talking because she was always the one doing it. All I have to do was listen. It sort of got my mind off the problem. Gie told me about how hectic her schedule was yesterday. And let me tell you, it really was. I was just listening to her rant and rave about her life when she suddenly said "O? Alam ko naman kung bakit ka tumawag dito. Ano? Sabihin mo na..." And I was like..."My GOD! Gie! I LOVE YOU! You DO know ME!" and she was like..."No problem." So I poured my heart out. I told her about my feelings. My insights. Everything. Even my monologue. (Er...I always make one for no one to hear, but I always recite it to Gie and Bagie. Hehehe.) After I finished, I felt lighter. My God it felt good. To have my burden sort of um...lightened? So anyway Gie said something like. "So you wanna go out? C'mon Hanna. I know you NEED cheering up." And I was like, "Where do we go?" Duh. Stupid question. We both know that everytime we go out, we never really have a specific destination. I know what she'll say. And she said it. "Anywhere!" so I agreed (I nearly cried. Imagine! Gie? Cancelling ALL her appointments for the day just to cheer up little-old-me??? Just to see my crestfallen little face turn into a smiling one??? My god I love her! I wanted to hug her, but, I can't because of course we were talking on the phone. ) One hour later, I was in her place and we decided to go to glorietta. We commuted towards the MRT station. When we arrived there, Vanessa texted Gie. So Gie and I had to wait for an hour in Mcdonalds for that girl. No biggie. Gie even smudge chocolate syrup (from the choco-sundae *wink*wink) all over her teeth just to make me laugh. (Don't take this the wrong way. I wasn't in a really sad state. It's just that, you know how Gie likes making people laugh.) So when Vanessa arrived, we rode the MRT towards Glorietta. Fun. Fun. Fun. Then after an hour, the three of us decided to go to Greenhills! So back to MRT! When we arrived in Greenhills, we ate first and then! Back into action! So anyway, after an hour in Greenhills, we already had to go home because my Mom told me to be back at 7:00 pm. Besides! Teejay was also gonna go to Gie's house to tell her something REALLY important. So there. I arrived on time in Gie's house. I called my mom and she was completely cool about it because once I'm in Gie's house already, Mom considers it, like I'm HOME. The day ended and I went home (my REAL home) at about 8:30 pm. I was busy and happy. Too bad that THING I was hoping to forget that day NEVER really left my mind...=)

Christmas Vacation, Here I Come!

2004-12-22T22:01:00.000Z

At last! Our school day obsessed...uh...school, finally released us! Haha! Our Christmas vacation really started late, huh? Other schools had probably declared their holiday vacation WAY earlier...but what matters now is that school's over, which means RELAXATION! Whoohoo! =D Though I'm not so sure coz Gie's planning something. She said that maybe we could play badminton to lessen our fats. Hehehe. She was also planning on eating once a day and exercising every morning BEFORE badminton. I went..."Uh...Gie? I want to get slimmer but I don't want to die?" She just laughed and said that she'd done it before and the glory that comes later would really be worth it. I just wish that THAT plan wouldn't remain a plan...just like a dozen of other plans the two of us usually have. HAHAHA! Well anyway, that's about it.

sunday

2004-12-16T08:51:00.000Z

Okay, so here's what happened to me last Sunday. I woke up at about 9:30 am, got out of bed, brushed my teeth, washed my face, combed my hair then got out of the room. I had coffee and toast for breakfast which was nice...then at about 10:45 am, I called Gie. But guess what? She's gone. "Pumunta na siya dun sa gathering?" I asked. "Nagsimba muna sila." the speakersaid. So I hung up the phone, opened the computer and played heroes of might and magic. At 11:55 am mom told me to prepare already. So I got up, and took a bath. At about 12:20 pm...what the heck, let's skip that part, fast forward. So I arrived there (Q.C. Sports club) at about 1:00 pm. Thank heavens the food is still being served! Gie looked cute in her mni-skirt and pink blouse by the way. So anyway, when I got there Gie and I ate our lunch. Then after about 20 minutes, Addi and Teejay arrived. Gie introduced Teejay to her relatives...to her DAD too of course. The day went by in its usual pace, the four of us together from 1:30 pm up to 7:10 pm. We did a lot of strolling, and some talking, and a lot of just sitting there,and some talking (which is great.) and joking around. Y'know? the usual stuff. It was fun.

*Swings are cool. =)

SMILE!

2004-12-10T22:09:00.000Z

I just proved SOMETHING fifteen minutes ago! It made ME smile...no biggie? Well what if I tell you that I haven't stopped smiling since? Hehehe! =D

Gummi candy!

2004-12-10T21:49:00.000Z

Okay..so nothing much happened to me today, but I didn't get bored. I was totally weird because, I laugh too easily the whole day. Weird... But that's okay because my bestfriend and I had the same thing. (She was also laughing about the tiniest details like me!) Maybe its the effect of Gummi bears or Gummi cola or Gummi worms, which! By the way is all that we ever ate today. (Another ka-weirdohan) We were practically wrestling in the corridor for those candies, Gie proved to be difficult because everytime I reach for even just ONE piece, she'd pop ALL the gummi candies in her mouth all at the same time! YES THE WHOLE PACKAGE! WHICH KEPT HER MOUTH FULL AND ALMOST BURSTING. Its not that I like those things anyway also! But... I dunno. My God we really looked crazy. I was laughing hysterically. What's wrong with me today anyway??? Oh yeah! And did I mention that from now on, Gie and I are no longer calling ourselves as the PINK twins. We now, officially proclaim ourselves... the PIG twins. Because we never do ANYTHING but eat! I dunno about her. She DOESN'T look fat, but I do. Gosh! Do you think she's just saying that she's also fat so that I wouldn't feel THAT bad? DOI! It's not like I feel bad anyway...but come to think of it...WE (Yea, as in the TWO of us.) ate too much tlga this recess time. Hmmm... Oh yeah and all Gie talked about the ENTIRE physics class was how she wanted to take me to disneyland and universal studios. She was telling me all about it NON-STOP. Well, after she talked about that, she told me that she'd say something that will make me cry. What was that thing you ask? THAT SHE WOULDN'T EVEN GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW IF I WOULDN'T BE PRESENT BECAUSE SHE'D FEEL ALONE. I was like... "Okay...so...Am I supposed to cry NOW?" and she was like... "HAY naku! (rolls eyes)" and I was like, "Joke! Hahaha! I LOVE YOU!" and she smiled and said "Yea me too." and I said "What, you love yourself also?" and she said "Yep. But I love you too." Smiles. That pretty much concluded my day. So...I know what you're thinking...that this is the most pointless and worthless entry I've ever written. You've got THAT right. ;p

=)

2004-12-06T21:35:00.000Z

Something happened today!=)...w-ell...its really NOT THAT much of a big deal, but...well...(sigh) I can't even believe that this is ME speaking. Haha. Getting back to my point, um... well see...this afternoon, Gie, Tash, Amor, Phoebe, Ira and I all went to Frio Mixx =)...to meet up with some, uh... people. (Forgive me Audrey, you're bound to know anyway, so here goes...) First, Teejay and his friends arrived. Of course Teejay went near Gie and talked to her. So anyway, after about 20 minutes, Tash-I mean Mikko and Addi arrived...so...so there. =) After eating (well actually, after WE ate because Addi didn't get to eat thanks to the super-ultra-hyper fast service of Frio Mixx of course!) and more conversing, we decided to leave the place. Teejay and his friend, Gie, Addi and I all walked back to STC to get our stuff (Gie and I left our bags there.) and while walking there, Addi told me that SOME guy told HIM that I already had a boyfriend before... which is not true. (MESSAGE TO THE GUY: Do you even know what you're talking about? I don't think so. So better check your resources and make sure about your facts before actually spreading them, okay?) When we reached STC, Gie and I collected our stuff and started towards the direction of her house. Addi always was on the danger side whenever we're crossing the street and he helped me with my file case which is so...sweet of him? SO ANYWAY! We finally reached Gie's house and the story ends there, okay? THE END! =)

P.S. I sure DID made a whole LOT of mistakes... =(

result

2004-12-05T22:34:00.000Z

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

as if

2004-12-05T20:22:00.000Z

Okay, after a LONG period of time...I finally blogged again! Okay, first things first. Gie, my ultra-gorgeous bestfriend, (who spent the last day of her 16 year old life with a certain *AHEM-AHEM!* someone.) Happy Birthday! And...well...um, Sorry I wasn't able to post whatever I needed to post here. (Yknow? Our deal?) Anyway! I just came back from Fontana! My God I darkened! I spent like...7 hours in the water! My little singaporean cousins doesn't seem to know the meaning of the word "REST". I had fun though...What's the matter with ME??? Everytime, SOMETHING actually happened, I can't seem to write (or type) about that event here. But when nothing IS happening, I could actually manage to write 300 sentences about it. Boohoo. =(. Promise! The next entry would be better. (That is, if anyone is ACTUALLY reading this thing). That's all.

Change is normal...right?!

2004-11-28T21:56:00.000Z

Today was...um...mediocre? Because nothing really bloggable happened. I watched the "Polar Express" with Halecx and guess what? I actually liked it! Because...well, the "Polar Express" seemed like the type of movie without a plot...I mean, when you watch the trailer, dba? Well enough about the "Polar Express", the real reason why I'm writing here is because...I noticed something different about me today. It's nothing big...Anyway, as I was walking around the mall earlier, I noticed a scrunchie. It's baby pink and it has these little colorful buttons on it. I was actually considering the fact that maybe I should buy it when I suddenly blurted out "Wag na. Mukhang pambata." Halecx looked at me with this Is-that-you-or-has-an-alien-abducted-my-real-sister look and said "So when did THAT ever mattered to you???" and I was like, "Well, I guess I just don’t feel like wearing these things anymore.". Okay. No biggie right? WRONG! Because if you really really really know me... You'd probably be shocked... I'm such a kid. I love candies, bubble gums, ice creams EVERYTHING! I love seeing rainbows, flowers and the lot! I mean, c'mon! I still live in the world of fairy tales! My hero is Peter pan for God's sake! ...and I still do love all of these... but the incident that happened today sort of made me think... Does this mean that I'm growing up? Maybe? Nah! I don't think so...right? Right? The truth is...I don’t...know...

fun filled

2004-11-27T21:18:00.000Z

Yesterday, I went to a soiree. It was fun. Everyone (well...almost anyway) was there. Gie looked so...pink and pretty (of course). Anyway, I spent most of my time there chatting with everyone! =) So there. Anyway, today was also great, because we went to a book launching event. Fun din! BUT the book launching event wasn't the real fun (Duh. Nobody was there...okay, senator magsaysay WAS there and a few other known people and maybe some cameras and journalists were there also, but hello? Like I care.) The real fun was when we (the CWJ class) were all still in the bus! And! When Claire and I sat beside each other giggling silently and texting illegally, hahaha! Also when the talk ended and Bagie was like "Hanna? San ka nakakuha niyan? (A really expensive looking pamphlet.) Pwede ba kumuha?" and I was like "Security guards aren't chasing me...so..I guess its ok! =)" and when we were given free food! (Which totally tasted sooo bad! But I was starving! So I guess its okay.) And when Tikya (she is actually fun to be with!) and I were talking about all sort of things in power books and when we sneaked out to go to the body shop! ;D! Hahahaha! We almost didn't make it! Board the bus I mean... but what the heck? Of course they wouldn't leave us, would they? And the trip back to school was also fun...I was sooo busy!

I'm on a trance

2004-11-24T21:58:00.000Z

I AM FEELING LIGHT!!! Why??? Because! I'm sooo happy! You knw that? The stupid misundertanding thing has passed and it's all okay now... Geez! I just hope that THAT's the last of it.

DREAMS ARE MY REALITY

Met you by surprise..
I didn't realize,
That my life would change...
Forever.
Saw you standing there,
I didn't knw I cared.
But there was something special,
In the air...
Dreams are my reality,
the only kind of real life,
for me.
Illusions are a common thing,
I try to live and dream.
Perhaps that's why its meant,
to be...
If you do exist,
Honey dont resist.
Show me a new way, of living.
Show me that its true,
feelings I've for you.
I feel something special,
about you...
DREAMS ARE MY REALITY,
A WONDROUS WORLD,
WHERE I'D LOVE TO BE...
MAYBE MY FOOLISHNESS,
HAS PASSED...
AND MAYBE NOW AT LAST...
I'LL SEE HOW A REAL
THING CAN BE...

oh man...

2004-11-22T20:13:00.000Z

My God! I don't know what's happening to me! So if you think that my last entry was THAT bad, then brace yourself for this one. If I thought that things weren't exactly crystal clear then, well I guess right now, I CAN'T SEE ANYMORE. Yesterday, a certain person wasn't acting like himself. I asked him about it and he just told me that it was about the poem...I wasn't convinced. So anyway, I just let that slip. But awhile ago, I found out what REALLY happened. My "friend" told her "so-called-friend" that I wasn't happy about what a certain person told me (the-person-who-was-acting-weird-yesterday). AND! The "so-called-friend" of my "friend" told the "person-who-was-acting-weird-yesterday". I SWEAR TO GOD IT'S SOOOO NOT TRUE! I wasn't upset about that! That doesn't even matter to me! My God how could my "friend" even THOUGHT about that??? I am so upset right now because I'm feeling guilty for something that I didn't even do! Argh!!! I just wish that my "friend" would just stop helping. Because right now, it is NOT HELPING, it is DESTROYING everything! And I just hope that "the-person-who-was-acting-weird-yesterday" would actually talk to me and hear my side first! And as for that "so-called-friend"...well...okay, he didn't do anything...but I am so CONFUSED right now! Good thing my "friend" told me what she had "BRILLIANTLY SAID" the other day (NOTE: She was actually HAPPY about it), after physics and trigo or my brain wouldn't have functioned properly.

Bored

2004-11-19T20:20:00.000Z

Nothing's happening to me...Ooookay! That was a lie. Too many things are going on inside my head its really confusing. I'm in this,,,sticky swirly pink haze. Everything seems so unreal. One moment its perfect then the next its all sooo NOT. I'm frustrated by what's happening all around me. Everything seemed crystal clear before, why couldn't it stay that way? I'm s2pid tlga! This is all my fault! I can't help it! Sometimes when I like a person and that person's just oh-so-nice to me, I tend to be mean. I don't want to be but hey! It happens. I'm 16 years old. I can make mistakes.

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2004-11-16T21:21:00.000Z

Tuesday today. Nothing bloggable happened. But! Something bloggable happened last Sunday and yesterday. Okay so here goes. Yesterday, my family and I watched "The Incredibles". It was such an adorable movie! Really cute. And last Sunday? I spent the day with my little cousins. Where? EK! (Enchanted Kingdom!) I had fun! Despite the baby sitting job that went with the trip. My little cousins were riding the Space shuttle! Imagine that! While I, a certified 16 year old, can't even find the courage to actually line up and back out later on! Ugh! They were like ... "Ate! Sige na! Try mo lang!" and I was like "Really sorry! I can't!" and my dad said "C'mon Hanna! What's the worst thing that could happen? I'll tell you! The worst thing that could happen to you after ridng the space suttle is to throw up." *smiles* and I went "Um...no. That's not the worst thing that could happen. I could also! Have a heart attack in mid-fall and die! Or! I could develop epileptic tendenies in the middle of the ride! Or!-" and my dad just told me to stop it because I was over reacting. Well...okay! I was. But...hello??? I'm really sorry but I can't do it! I'm such a chicken when it comes to these things! I love the wheel of fate though! It's my favorite! =)

Me and my big mouth

2004-11-13T20:17:00.000Z

It's Saturday today...and my cousin celebrated her 12th b-day...it was okay...(sigh)...=(...okay, here's the deal. It's kind of stupid for me to say this but...I have this thing, about writing or composing or typing everything that I go through...or how I feel...or some of my insights maybe? But after what happened to me yesterday... I'm sort of hesitant to put anything here na...because! BECAUSE! Because I wrote something here and it offended someone! And then he offended me! Like Hello?!? It's my on line JOURNAL. Get it? JOURNAL. MY JOURNAL. So it's really absurd para mapigil ko yung sarili ko na ilagay dito kung anuman yung gusto kong ilagay dito. Pero it happened already. It totally sucks. He hates me. But I don't care. I just hope that he'll get over it. I mean-was I that offensive? Ay naku! I know that I should just shut up and keep quiet. But I'm not like that. I'm a girl who speaks her mind! Okay! Okay! I'm stopping! Hehe! Okay! Now on a lighter topic! Um...Ahhh!!! I dunno what's happening to me! I smile a lot these days! Not that I don't always smile...it's just that...these days...I smile too much! AND! I can't seem to think straight! But...it's okay. =)

Bedans meet Theresians

2004-11-10T20:43:00.000Z

Yesterday was great! (Eto nanaman ako sa intro ko...) What's so great about it you might ask? WELL! Yesterday was our interaction with San Beda! BUT! That's not the best thing that happened to me yesterday! The best thing that happened was...I BOUGHT A NEW WALLET! IT'S SOOOO UBERLY CUTE!!! IT'S PINK! IT'S FILLED WITH RAINBOW COLORED HEARTS! AND!!! STARS!!! Okay, I don't want to admit this, but I know that you're more interested about how the interaction went rather than hear (or read?!?) a detail by detail description of my new wallet (It's 150 pesos by the way!). So here goes, my classmates and I were like... "Interaction na? YES! WALANG PHYSICS!" when the bell, signaling lunch break went of. It was lunch break when, okay! Gotta admit. My classmates and I all went to the wash room to wash our faces. Some applied powder, some applied lip gloss, some applied blush on and...some just didn't care (but they still DID comb their hair.). Bagie and I went down the basement to grab a snack when we saw Gie with two Bedans. Read: Their here already??? So anyway, the whole thing started and it wasn't this...Boy-meets-girl-for-the-first-time-EVER-so-panic-and-run-for-your-lives akward event. Everyone was friendly and everyone acted naturally. The theresians were cool and the Bedans were funny. What else happened? Oh yeah! We played the "I love you" game and the "Pass the ball" game. We also had a debate and we watched intermission numbers from both schools. As of today, my classmates can't stop talking about yesterday's interaction. About who likes who and the nicest guy (King or Benedict?). Well that's about it...

Wisdom tooth gives you less wisdom

2004-11-08T20:19:00.000Z

No!No!No!No! I HATE IT! Guess what??? I have to undergo a stupid dental surgery! Because of my stupid Wisdom tooth which is growing inside my gums right this very instant!!! Ugh!!! Noooo!!! My dentist told me that it's gonna hurt real bad! Read: "Doc? Does Root canal hurt?" "No way! Root canal is a breeze!" "Okay,but what about the surgery that I'm gonna go through?" "Well...let's see...we're gonna cut your gums open, then force your wisdom tooth out...yep! Yes! It's gonna hurt! Four hundred times more painful than root canal. Any more questions?" "..."

P.S. I'm over BOX can't bliv that THAT happened...